i aint missing you at all

as i said in the last post, music is all around me and i'll never stop listening. this next song isnt a new one, just newly rediscovered. i was listening to Boys Like Girls and was too lazy to go onto itunes and change it when it was over, so after a few songs played, The Calling came on. these guys are good. i liked them alot when their first cd came out, and listening to them now? i still like em. anywho, this song came on and i randomly stopped listening and heard the line "Could it be any harder to live my life without you?". So i looked up the lyrics and once again, they are my life.

You left me with goodbye and open arms
A cut so deep I don't deserve
Well, you were always invincible in my eyes
The only thing against us now is time

Could it be any harder to say goodbye and without you,
Could it be any harder to watch you go, to face what's true
If I only had one more day

Fade away

I lie down and blind myself with laughter
Well, a quick fix of hope is what I'm needing
And how I wish that I could turn back the Years (not hours)
But I know I just don't have the power

Could it be any harder to say goodbye and without you,
Could it be any harder to watch you go, to face what's true
If I only had one more day

Well, I'd jump at the chance,
We'd drink and we'd dance
And I'd listen close to your every word,
As if it's your last, well I know it's your last,
Cause today, oh, you're gone

Could it be any harder,
fade away

Could it be any harder to live my life without you
Could it be any harder, I'm all alone, I'm all alone

Like sand on my feet,
The smell of sweet perfume
You stick to me forever, baby
I wish you didn't go
I wish you didn't go, I wish you didn't go away
To touch you again,
With life in your hands,
It couldn't be any harder


i hate missing people. but i think/hope it will only make our friendship (or whatever =D) stronger when i see him/them again. it's alot like a relationship with God, i think. I feel as though He sometimes "leaves" us stranded to strengthen our relationship. faith is about believing without seeing so when He doesnt seem present, thats when we need to show Him we need Him and we cant do anything without Him. Yes i know that a relationship shouldnt define us and we should be fine on our own, but thats a human thing. we dont need other people to make us who we are. they may influence us and help us to grow, but we shouldnt define ourselves by who we are dating and/or hanging out with. But with God, He should be what defines us.

i am not even sure if that makes sense. well, it does to me in my head, and i dont think anyone else reads this. so i hope i can understand it some day when i decide to come back and read that. meh.