if you don't, don't

What’s wrong baby,
Don’t they treat you like they should?
Did you take ’em for it?
Every penny that you could?

We once walked out on the beach
And once I almost touched your hand
Oh how I dreamed to finally say such things
Then only to pretend

Don’t you know what I’m thinkin’
Drivin' 405 past midnight
You know I miss you
Don’t you know that I miss you
Ninth and Ash on a Tuesday night

I would write to you from museum mile
A toast to you, your whisper, your smile
Up the stairs at Weatherford
A ghost each place I hide

If you don’t don't know, why would you say so?
Would you mean this please if it happens?
If you don’t know, why would you say so?
Won’t you get your story straight
If you don’t know, honey, would you just say so?
Cause I need this now
More than I ever did
If you don’t well, honey, then you don’t

I left you waiting,
At the least could we be friends?
Should have never started
Ain’t that the way it always ends?

On my life I'll try today
There’s so muchI've felt I should say, but
Even if your heart would listen
I Doubt I could explain

If you don't don't know, why'd you say so?
Would you mean this, please if it happens?
If you don’t know, Why would you say so?
Won’t you get your story straight
If you don’t know, honey, would you just say so?
Cause I need this now more than I ever did
If you don’t well, honey
Then you don’t

So here we are now
A sip of wine a sip of water
Someday maybe, maybe
Someday we’ll be smarter

And I’m sorry that I’m such a mess
I drank all my money could get and
Took everything You let me have and Then I
never loved you back

If you don’t don't know
Why would you say so?
Would you mean the
Please if it happens?
If you don’t know, why would you say so?
Won’t you get your story straight?
If you don’t know, honey, would you just say so?
Cause I need this now. yeah need this, need this
If you don’t well, honey, then you don’t
And if you don’t well, honey then you don’t
If you don’t know, honey
Honey, then you don’t

tuesday came and i feigned happy

i wish i could write everything thats been going on.

i wish i could put into words what i have been going through lately.

but really, i don't even know myself.

i am just so thankful that God has blessed me with my friends and my small group.

without them, i don't know where or who i'd be.

they listen.

they tell it like it is.

they make me see things i didn't see.

they make me better.

feel better.

be a better person.

i'm learning to go to God with everything.

prayers and praises.

the good, the bad and the ugly.

its all His.

and i just want to let go of it and give it all to Him.

seems so simple right?

then why is it the hardest thing i've ever tried to do?

and just can't seem to do it?

we’ve no more space

for all your tired and dirty past

and i believe it all to be true

beyond this time, you’ll pull through

you’ll pull through