In open fields of wild flowers
She breathes the air and flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daisies and the roses
In no simple language
Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close as a heartbeat or a song on her lips
Someday she'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call her and she will come running
And fall in His arms, the tears will fall down and she'll pray
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You
Sitting silent, wearing Sunday best
The sermon echoes through the walls
A great salvation through it calls to the people
Who stare into nowhere, and can't feel the chains on their souls
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close as a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call us and we will come running
And fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we'll pray
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You
It seems too easy to call You Savior
Not close enough to call you God
So as I sit and think of words I can mention
To show my devotion
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You
-Jars of Clay
Monday, May 21, 2007
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
my future
first i want a turtle
then a puppy
and then i'll meet orlando bloom and this will happen
and then a we'll get a chimp
the end.
then a puppy
and then i'll meet orlando bloom and this will happen
and then a we'll get a chimp
the end.
Monday, May 14, 2007
Friday, May 11, 2007
friday night ramblings
it's 9:45pm on a friday night
and i'm home.
i don't mind though.
i had 2 options tonight.
Everybody Else at San Jose Skate
or
Dear and the Headlights in SF.
both would have been amazing.
both would have been $12 + gas money
so i opt out of both.
i'm really hoping my whole "not regretting anything" mindset stays.
my brother graduates from college tomorrow,
so i spent most of the afternoon cleaning for his party.
i'm so proud of him.
it's funny to think that if i had stayed in college,
and passed all my classes,
i would be graduating this year too.
but the whole "passing my classes" thing just wasnt working out.
i'm just not the school type.
i talked about that with adam once.
i said that i think because my parents never forced me to do my homework,
i got into the habit of being lazy and not doing it
causing me to get bad grades
which made me seem stupid.
so i plan on enforcing homework and studying in my household.
i don't want them to feel the way i do about my smarts.
i was actually telling my mom today how i have no discipline.
i could have gotten straight A's if i wanted them,
and if i tried.
but i didnt care.
i also have that problem with reading.
i love to read,
i just don't have the discipline to sit down and do it.
i also think it could be ADD
i wonder if you can have a slight case of it.
because i think i do.
i sometimes just cant sit still.
or when im talking to someone,
i have to be doing something with my hands
or when i read outloud in a group,
and im sitting,
i always cross my legs and bounce the top one up and down.
ALWAYS.
are those just random/weird habits?
or a slight case of ADD?
maybe i'll get tested one day.
or maybe its my hypochondria,
cause im pretty sure i have that.
yeesh.
now im rambling.
so i'll stop.
and i'm home.
i don't mind though.
i had 2 options tonight.
Everybody Else at San Jose Skate
or
Dear and the Headlights in SF.
both would have been amazing.
both would have been $12 + gas money
so i opt out of both.
i'm really hoping my whole "not regretting anything" mindset stays.
my brother graduates from college tomorrow,
so i spent most of the afternoon cleaning for his party.
i'm so proud of him.
it's funny to think that if i had stayed in college,
and passed all my classes,
i would be graduating this year too.
but the whole "passing my classes" thing just wasnt working out.
i'm just not the school type.
i talked about that with adam once.
i said that i think because my parents never forced me to do my homework,
i got into the habit of being lazy and not doing it
causing me to get bad grades
which made me seem stupid.
so i plan on enforcing homework and studying in my household.
i don't want them to feel the way i do about my smarts.
i was actually telling my mom today how i have no discipline.
i could have gotten straight A's if i wanted them,
and if i tried.
but i didnt care.
i also have that problem with reading.
i love to read,
i just don't have the discipline to sit down and do it.
i also think it could be ADD
i wonder if you can have a slight case of it.
because i think i do.
i sometimes just cant sit still.
or when im talking to someone,
i have to be doing something with my hands
or when i read outloud in a group,
and im sitting,
i always cross my legs and bounce the top one up and down.
ALWAYS.
are those just random/weird habits?
or a slight case of ADD?
maybe i'll get tested one day.
or maybe its my hypochondria,
cause im pretty sure i have that.
yeesh.
now im rambling.
so i'll stop.
Sunday, May 6, 2007
come what may
things are changing. but i am more than fine with it.
this week has been pretty crazy. i have been actually keeping busy which i am happy about.
Wednesday night, stacy called me and asked if i wanted to come to the welcome freshman kidnapping in the college group. i wanted to go, but i needed her to do some convincing. She said they would have banana splits and the chubby girl in me rushed to the church. And i have to say, i do not regret it one bit. I got to hang out with some really fun people and make alot of people laugh which made me feel really good. Plus, jesse and ian were there and i love those boys. Plus katie peters and some others that it was good to see. It was really fun. I love hanging out with stacy. She always makes me feel good.
Thursday shannon and i went and got dinner at arby's and talked forever and then went to target and shopped. i bought People magazine. then we went to the mall and got gelato and then went to South Hills' college group. it really sucked which didnt surprise me, but it was fun getting to hang out with shannon.
Friday my mom and i went shopping and i spent too much money so i gotta go back and return some stuff. Then we wathced LOST. Then i went to shannon's and hung out with her and craig for a little while. we rented Alpha Dog but about 45 mins through i went home to go to bed cuz i was exhausted.
Satudrday i woke up at 7 and picked up stephanie and drove an hour and a half to point lobos down by carmel. it was so beautiful there. we took tons and tons of pictures and just hung out and talked. We were there for about 4 hours when we decided to leave. We blasted Moulin Rouge songs on the way home and it couldnt have been a more perfect moment.
Max texted me and said if i wanted to come to the show at the Warfield that they would sneak me in. OKAY. so i headed up to SF and pretty much just walked in when they werent paying attention. i was there for about an hour and a half just hanging out in their dressing room. got to have a good talk with both max and then ben and it was really good. We went out to go eat and max says "slash is eating right now". So im not really a Velvet Revolver fan, but i know who slash is. Yeah, kind of a big deal. So i say "am i allowed to look at him or should i not make eye contact?". Max thought that was funny. And lo and behold there he was. It was pretty surreal. Then their manager came in and said they'll get kicked off the tour if they are caught sneaking anyone in. So i ran out. But luckily they had a more spots on their guest list than they thought, so i got on that. i met up with aaron's girlfriend and after about 2 hours of waiting, we got to go in. She was so nice and introduced me to all her friends and made sure i felt included. It was so sweet. Everyone was really nice. She said "drinks?" and i said "yes please!" so i bought a heinken (later when mine was empty, her friend noticed so he bought me another one. i just couldnt say no!). So we watched The Actual perform on stage at The Warfield. so crazy. then because being on the guest list apparnetly makes you a VIP, we went outside and hung out with the guys. then went backstage and hung out with them down there, then went out and watched velvet revolver. Not really a fan, but they are definately very entertaining. Max kept giving me little signals like grabbing my hand to pull me in to the crowd and putting his hand around my neck or on my back, but those all lasted only a few seconds. I just couldnt tell if he was just being nice or what. So who knows. He's so sweet and i love hanging out with those guys.
So thats been my life as of now.
My next big dilemna is friday. I was planning on going to see Everybody Else at SAN JOSE SKATE but i just found out one of my favorite bands, Dear and the Headlights, is playing in SF that night. i wouldnt even consider seeing DATH, but i'm probably going to see EE on tuesday. Plus, i was listening to DATH last night on my way home and it made me really really want to see them. yeesh. what to do, what to do.
ok, so thats not that big. my real next big dilema is where to work this summer. Do i want to continue being a nanny? or find something else? i dont know. i guess i'll just have to think long and hard and pray that He will guide me down the right path.
this week has been pretty crazy. i have been actually keeping busy which i am happy about.
Wednesday night, stacy called me and asked if i wanted to come to the welcome freshman kidnapping in the college group. i wanted to go, but i needed her to do some convincing. She said they would have banana splits and the chubby girl in me rushed to the church. And i have to say, i do not regret it one bit. I got to hang out with some really fun people and make alot of people laugh which made me feel really good. Plus, jesse and ian were there and i love those boys. Plus katie peters and some others that it was good to see. It was really fun. I love hanging out with stacy. She always makes me feel good.
Thursday shannon and i went and got dinner at arby's and talked forever and then went to target and shopped. i bought People magazine. then we went to the mall and got gelato and then went to South Hills' college group. it really sucked which didnt surprise me, but it was fun getting to hang out with shannon.
Friday my mom and i went shopping and i spent too much money so i gotta go back and return some stuff. Then we wathced LOST. Then i went to shannon's and hung out with her and craig for a little while. we rented Alpha Dog but about 45 mins through i went home to go to bed cuz i was exhausted.
Satudrday i woke up at 7 and picked up stephanie and drove an hour and a half to point lobos down by carmel. it was so beautiful there. we took tons and tons of pictures and just hung out and talked. We were there for about 4 hours when we decided to leave. We blasted Moulin Rouge songs on the way home and it couldnt have been a more perfect moment.
Max texted me and said if i wanted to come to the show at the Warfield that they would sneak me in. OKAY. so i headed up to SF and pretty much just walked in when they werent paying attention. i was there for about an hour and a half just hanging out in their dressing room. got to have a good talk with both max and then ben and it was really good. We went out to go eat and max says "slash is eating right now". So im not really a Velvet Revolver fan, but i know who slash is. Yeah, kind of a big deal. So i say "am i allowed to look at him or should i not make eye contact?". Max thought that was funny. And lo and behold there he was. It was pretty surreal. Then their manager came in and said they'll get kicked off the tour if they are caught sneaking anyone in. So i ran out. But luckily they had a more spots on their guest list than they thought, so i got on that. i met up with aaron's girlfriend and after about 2 hours of waiting, we got to go in. She was so nice and introduced me to all her friends and made sure i felt included. It was so sweet. Everyone was really nice. She said "drinks?" and i said "yes please!" so i bought a heinken (later when mine was empty, her friend noticed so he bought me another one. i just couldnt say no!). So we watched The Actual perform on stage at The Warfield. so crazy. then because being on the guest list apparnetly makes you a VIP, we went outside and hung out with the guys. then went backstage and hung out with them down there, then went out and watched velvet revolver. Not really a fan, but they are definately very entertaining. Max kept giving me little signals like grabbing my hand to pull me in to the crowd and putting his hand around my neck or on my back, but those all lasted only a few seconds. I just couldnt tell if he was just being nice or what. So who knows. He's so sweet and i love hanging out with those guys.
So thats been my life as of now.
My next big dilemna is friday. I was planning on going to see Everybody Else at SAN JOSE SKATE but i just found out one of my favorite bands, Dear and the Headlights, is playing in SF that night. i wouldnt even consider seeing DATH, but i'm probably going to see EE on tuesday. Plus, i was listening to DATH last night on my way home and it made me really really want to see them. yeesh. what to do, what to do.
ok, so thats not that big. my real next big dilema is where to work this summer. Do i want to continue being a nanny? or find something else? i dont know. i guess i'll just have to think long and hard and pray that He will guide me down the right path.
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