Friday, May 11, 2007

friday night ramblings

it's 9:45pm on a friday night
and i'm home.
i don't mind though.
i had 2 options tonight.
Everybody Else at San Jose Skate
or
Dear and the Headlights in SF.
both would have been amazing.
both would have been $12 + gas money
so i opt out of both.
i'm really hoping my whole "not regretting anything" mindset stays.

my brother graduates from college tomorrow,
so i spent most of the afternoon cleaning for his party.
i'm so proud of him.
it's funny to think that if i had stayed in college,
and passed all my classes,
i would be graduating this year too.
but the whole "passing my classes" thing just wasnt working out.

i'm just not the school type.
i talked about that with adam once.
i said that i think because my parents never forced me to do my homework,
i got into the habit of being lazy and not doing it
causing me to get bad grades
which made me seem stupid.
so i plan on enforcing homework and studying in my household.
i don't want them to feel the way i do about my smarts.

i was actually telling my mom today how i have no discipline.
i could have gotten straight A's if i wanted them,
and if i tried.
but i didnt care.
i also have that problem with reading.
i love to read,
i just don't have the discipline to sit down and do it.

i also think it could be ADD
i wonder if you can have a slight case of it.
because i think i do.
i sometimes just cant sit still.
or when im talking to someone,
i have to be doing something with my hands
or when i read outloud in a group,
and im sitting,
i always cross my legs and bounce the top one up and down.
ALWAYS.
are those just random/weird habits?
or a slight case of ADD?

maybe i'll get tested one day.
or maybe its my hypochondria,
cause im pretty sure i have that.

yeesh.
now im rambling.
so i'll stop.

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