as 2009 approaches, i thought i would recap some of what went down in my life in the year of 2008. so here we go...
January:
-2008 started off with me sitting in my Los Angeles apartment, watching Batman Begins and texting my boy who was in NY. At this point, there were 4 of us living there, Michelle and Jordyn in one room and nicole and i in the other. We also had an invisible roommate who was paying rent while living in South Dakota or something like that (she ended up moving in about a week after i moved out). My roommate nicole and i were going to have people over, but we had only a few friends and changed our minds last minute. i am not sure the exact reason, but i am guessing it had something to do with Brian, Nicole's creepy friend/stalker/worshipper. He was planning on coming and i think she freaked. so nicole and i were to spend it together. she fell asleep at 10.
-Ashley came down to visit me and we began discussing the idea of me moving back home because she wouldn't be able to afford moving to LA and my work (Virgin Megastore on Sunset) had closed down. So that following weekend, Ashley, Lindsay, Melissa and I road-tripped it up to san jose, mainly for my dad's 50th birthday party. I asked my parents if i could move home and of course the obliged and i got to tell some of my best friends that night that i would be returning. I felt peace. and they were all happy :)
February:
-I went to Utah to visit the boy. It was a lot of fun. it was also really hard. we both knew it wouldn't last but it definitely was fun while it lasted. While i was gone, Nicole called me everyday. Not because she missed me, although i am sure that was part of it, but because they were having some issues with Jordyn. Long story short, Jordyn got pissed at michelle and nicole, drew creepy pictures of michelle in her journal, keyed Nicole's social security number into Michelle's car and denied the bullemia we all knew she had. So she moved out while i was gone.
-Nicole's 21st birthday was the 14th, and we were both so exhausted, we stayed in that night. So the next night, Lindsay joined Nicole and I for Nicole's 21st birthday celebration. Probably one of the funnest nights i have ever had. We went to our favorite Hollywood bar, Cat N Fiddle, and just had an absolute blast. Nicole then decided we should meet up with her co-worker in Westwood (about a 20 min drive, and yes, i was driving). So we met him at a hookah bar. Persian city. it was awkward. really, really, awkward. So we left soon after, and headed back to the apartment. Lindsay left and the next morning, Nicole and our roommate michelle and i went out to breakfast at The Griddle. So delicious. The i packed up the rest of my stuff, said goodbye to my remaining 2 roommates and headed to San Jose. I found out later they both cried after i left. that meant a lot to me.
-4 days after moving back, i went on an interview at the preschool my old boss/youth pastor's wife/friend was the director at and met the other director and started work the following day. When i moved to LA, it took me 2 months to get a job and within 5 days i moving to san jose, i had one. Kind of a sign i did the right thing.
March:
-I finally got a great picture with Gavin DeGraw. After seeing him and meeting him about 7 times and taking a picture with him almost every single time, i finally got one where i looked good. On the down side though, his show was cancelled because he was sick. But he hung around to personally apologize to his fans, the sweetest man ever, and take pictures. I talked to him. A lot. I was so cool and so calm even though i am madly in love with him. I invited him to get drinks with ashley and i but he never made it, like he said he probably wouldn't. but i had to ask! i don't know what came over me, but that was probably the best hour of my life. And oh yeah, he really liked my yellow jacket.
April:
-To start the month, Brooke and I saw one of our favorite bands, Steel Train, at one of my favorite venues, Slim’s. It was SO GOOD.
-The day before my birthday, Brooke and I went to San Jose State Event Center and saw Dear and the Headlights (our favorite band) open for Paramore who opened for Jimmy Eat World. Yeah, I guess you could say it was one of the best concerts I have ever been to.
-On my actual birthday, a bunch of friends helped me celebrate at Khartum’s in Campbell. It was really fun!
-That Friday, my brother decided to throw a party and invited myself and his friend Kevin to make it a combined party. He loves them parties to the theme was dress up as your favorite Jon, Kevin or Jessica. There was someone who received a Dear John Letter, Jessica Simpson, JonJacobJingleHeimerSchmit, I was John Krasinski as Jim Halpert as Dwight Shrute, there was a John (a toilet), John Lennon, Kevin Bacon, John Dunbar, Jessica Walter, and many, many more. It was way fun. So all in all, I had a pretty fun birthday.
May:
-I took a roadtrip down to Cal Poly and visited Arianne before she graduated. We went to her usual Thursday night place and went line dancing! It was pretty ridiculous because I had no idea what I was doing and she is like a pro. Then I finished the drive and headed to LA. At this point Nicole had moved out of an apartment with Michelle and Michelle’s sister because of a sketchy landlord and a lot of sneakiness going on behind her back. So she was living with a coworker in Silverlake, the place we wanted to move to before I moved home. We went to our bar again and met up with my friend Max and some other guy we won't speak of anymore. Max said we could stay at his mom's place so we drove up the hill, yes, THE HILL. Beverly Hills. Did i mention who max's mom is? Nora Ephron. It ended up not working out because they were having painters come over early the next morning so he drove us back to Nicole's place. Darn.
-Lindsay moved home. I was so thrilled for this.
-Robbie and Stacy had Thrice tickets but couldn't make it, so they sold them to brooke and I. I had tried to get tickets but they were already sold out so i was stoked. It was so good. Dustin Kensrue is my perfect man. If he wasn't already married, i would think he was my soulmate. No joke.
June:
-Shannon's family went camping in Tahoe and she invited me along for a weekend. It was way fun. I hadn't been in so long and after going ever summer since i was like 5, i was pretty excited to get to go back. We didn't do much, but we did enough to have a really good time.
-Saw Steel Train again at Slim's and also Augustana at Music in the Park. both great shows.
July:
-I went to Hume Lake as a counselor for the high school group at hillside and had a great time getting to know those girls. Hume is always amazing and it was definitely a different experience not really knowing the girls very well, but it was still fun.
-Saw John Mayer for the 2nd time at Shoreline with Greta, Vanessa and Breanne. I don't know how he does it, but he is still so good even though we were really far away.
August:
-August was definitely not my month. i don't really even know what to write here without bringing back some great memories that turned out not so good. Long story short, I met a boy, he led me on, broke my heart, and stopped talking to me. Normally, no big. But i thought this one was a keeper. and he led me on, so i thought he was in it too. Guess that'll teach me to fall fast again. Lesson learned God.
-the other horrible thing that happened to me was one of my best friends stopped talking to me out of the blue. Adam lives in WI and i have only actually hung out with him once. but we had known each other for almost 3 years and talked on the phone at least once a month. We were really close. I finally had the money to fly out to see him so we decided to meet in Chicago and hang out there for the weekend. I bought the tickets (twice because i had to change the first ones) and we were in the final stages of planning the details when he stopped returning my phone calls, stopped responding to my messages and comments and just completely forced me out of my life. To this day, i still don't know why. I don't know if i did something, if he just had a change of heart, if his new girlfriend didn't want him talking to him or what. I wrote him a message asking for an explanation and never heard back. So after 3 years of friendship, that was that. It still hurts to think about and it still confuses me beyond belief.
September:
-I can't remember much about September. Went to Oregon with the family and that's about all.
October:
-After not seeing Holly (who moved back to Roseville in April) since she moved away, i finally was able to make a trip to see her. Betsy and i headed up and Holly had no idea i was coming along. It was really fun getting to surprise her. We went out to dinner with her and Betsy's sister Emily and their roommate Sarah and just got to talk and hang out and watch movies. My favorite part of the trip was going to sleep. Holly shared her bed with me and we just talked and talked and talked all about life and boys and God and family and everything we were going through and it was so amazing! i will cherish that time for a long time.
-Brooke, Betsy and I took Lindsay out to dinner for her birthday. We got all dressed up and went to PFChang's downtown and had an absolute blast.
-Brooke, Betsy, her boyfriend Kenny, Ian, Michelle and I went to Slim's and saw The Reign of Kindo, Barcelona and Sherwood. My brother had been on tour with Sherwood for a few weeks so i got to see him and those are three of my favorite bands and some of my favorite people so all in all, it was a good time.
-I finally had a really fun halloween. I found my perfect costume the day before, Batman, and wore it to work and then went to a party and Brent and Sarah's and hung out with some good friends.
November:
_November started out with some great concerts. First, She & Him (Zooey Deschanel's band) at Bimbo's 365 which was a venue I had never been to and it was a awesome venue and an amazing show. I love that band.
-Then, we were very blessed that 2 of our favorite bands were going on tour together. Dear and the Headlights and Steel Train. And they played at another favorite venue of mine, Bottom of the Hill. So lindsay, brooke and i headed up and had an absolutely phenomenal time. Another one of the best shows i have ever been to.
-I once again went down to visit Nicole. By now she was living back at home in Visalia so i drove down there thursday night and we left for L.A. friday morning, checked into our hotel, went shopping, went to our usual Cat N Fiddle with her friend Denise, got ridiculously wasted, went back to Visalia saturday afternoon and hung out all day while we recovered adn then i came home sunday morning and an hour later went to Laurel Warwick's bridal shower.
-For thanksgiving, my family went up to Willits and had dinner with my mom's sister and family. It was really fun. and the next day we just hung out and walked around the little town and then came home that night.
December:
-My mom and i went to Oregon to visit her family. My cousin who is in the air force has been stationed in Japan for 4 years or so, came back to the states with her family so they got to all come up too. I met my cousin Michael for the first time and got to play with two 3 year olds too. I know, i am a dork. And I was happy because there was lots of snow!!!
-Lindsay and i hosted our first annual Christmas Potluck Brunch/Ornament Exchange and it was a definite success! There was 9 of us total, everyone brought a breakfast dish and an ornament. We ate and then played a fun game to exchange ornaments and hung out for a little bit. It was a good time.
-Christmas Eve, I worked til 3 while the rest of my family went to celebrate it with my dad's side of the family. I met up with brooke and lindsay after work and we gave lindsay he present. My family got home around 7 and we had Panda Express and watched A Christmas Story.
-Christmas day, we all got up early and went to a 6am church service. It was early, but a great way to start off Christmas day. Singing old hymns and hearing the prophecies of Jesus' birth all the way to His birth was really nice. We came home, had cinnamon rolls, a Havens family tradition for Christmas morning. We then opened stockings and presents. I got The Office Season 4, Transformers, brown boots, black jacket, a calendar, an ornament, Julie Andrews book Home, and i can't remember what else, but that's the jist of it. Then we went and saw Yes Man which i REALLY liked. that night i watched Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.
-Two of my new favorite things i got but not for christmas is a Canon Rebel camera my aunt gave me and brooke sold me her old (about a year old) record player.
As i look back on 2008, there were many many ups and downs. I definitely think 2009 will be a better year. I just have a really good attitude going into it. We shall see!
ps - if you read through this, you must really like me.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Thursday, December 25, 2008
my favorite christmas song
O holy night! The stars are brightly shining,
It is the night of our dear Saviour's birth.
Long lay the world in sin and error pining,
'Til He appear'd and the soul felt its worth.
A thrill of hope, the weary world rejoices,
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn.
Fall on your knees! O, hear the angels' voices!
O night divine, O night when Christ was born;
O night divine, O night, O night Divine.
Truly He taught us to love one another;
His law is love and His gospel is peace.
Chains shall He break for the slave is our brother;
And in His name all oppression shall cease.
Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,
Let all within us praise His holy name.
Christ is the Lord! O praise His Name forever,
His power and glory evermore proclaim.
His power and glory evermore proclaim.
and my favorite version of this song:
It is the night of our dear Saviour's birth.
Long lay the world in sin and error pining,
'Til He appear'd and the soul felt its worth.
A thrill of hope, the weary world rejoices,
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn.
Fall on your knees! O, hear the angels' voices!
O night divine, O night when Christ was born;
O night divine, O night, O night Divine.
Truly He taught us to love one another;
His law is love and His gospel is peace.
Chains shall He break for the slave is our brother;
And in His name all oppression shall cease.
Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,
Let all within us praise His holy name.
Christ is the Lord! O praise His Name forever,
His power and glory evermore proclaim.
His power and glory evermore proclaim.
and my favorite version of this song:
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
about me
my old roommate nicole just changed her about me section on myspace. that was my inspiration.
I have a fantasy of becoming a rock star. I would call it a secret fantasy but now everyone knows so its not so secret anymore.
I'm not afraid to admit that I would rather be a stay at home mom than anything else. But I am smart enough to know that it most likely won't happen.
I have worked with kids since I was in the 7th grade but don't know how much longer I can last.
I am a really good listener and unlike most people, I don't really like to talk about myself. and when I do, I feel selfish (and yes, thinking of all these things has been very difficult).
My friends are my world. I can't imagine where I would be or who I would be without them in my life.
I've loved Christian Bale since I was probably 8 years old. It's not just some "Batman" thing.
And with that, I loved Batman before Christian Bale. But I can't deny he helped.
I am not "religious" and I don't like calling myself a "Christian". I have a relationship with He who loves me more than anyone and although I can't understand it and don't always believe it, He's always there for me and never leaves my side.
As cliche as this sounds, I love my grandma's cooking.
I'd like to live in New York, Chicago and Colorado at some point in my life. I think I should visit those places first and then see where it goes from there.
I regret nothing. Everything happens for a reason. As hard as it is for me to see it sometimes, I really, truly believe it.
I hate when someone adds me on myspace or facebook and then doesn't even talk to me. Even if I "make the first move".
I've decided to go back to school and get my degree in Counseling with a minor in Photography. I am so excited and at the same time scared as hell that I won't be good at it.
Music is a huge part of my life. It can change my mood, heal my wounds, open up old ones, spark friendships and even make me love someone more than ever imagined.
ok. that'll do for now.
Monday, December 1, 2008
just 2
why can't i just be over it?
i don't get closure so i don't move on.
i like to just blame it all on you.
it's easier that way.
sometimes i think that people are too involved in themselves and their own issues to see mine. and if they do see them, and ask about them, i begin to feel selfish talking so much about me. so i ask about them. and it's a vicious cycle.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
if you don't, don't
What’s wrong baby,
Don’t they treat you like they should?
Did you take ’em for it?
Every penny that you could?
We once walked out on the beach
And once I almost touched your hand
Oh how I dreamed to finally say such things
Then only to pretend
Don’t you know what I’m thinkin’
Drivin' 405 past midnight
You know I miss you
Don’t you know that I miss you
Ninth and Ash on a Tuesday night
I would write to you from museum mile
A toast to you, your whisper, your smile
Up the stairs at Weatherford
A ghost each place I hide
If you don’t don't know, why would you say so?
Would you mean this please if it happens?
If you don’t know, why would you say so?
Won’t you get your story straight
If you don’t know, honey, would you just say so?
Cause I need this now
More than I ever did
If you don’t well, honey, then you don’t
I left you waiting,
At the least could we be friends?
Should have never started
Ain’t that the way it always ends?
On my life I'll try today
There’s so muchI've felt I should say, but
Even if your heart would listen
I Doubt I could explain
If you don't don't know, why'd you say so?
Would you mean this, please if it happens?
If you don’t know, Why would you say so?
Won’t you get your story straight
If you don’t know, honey, would you just say so?
Cause I need this now more than I ever did
If you don’t well, honey
Then you don’t
So here we are now
A sip of wine a sip of water
Someday maybe, maybe
Someday we’ll be smarter
And I’m sorry that I’m such a mess
I drank all my money could get and
Took everything You let me have and Then I
never loved you back
If you don’t don't know
Why would you say so?
Would you mean the
Please if it happens?
If you don’t know, why would you say so?
Won’t you get your story straight?
If you don’t know, honey, would you just say so?
Cause I need this now. yeah need this, need this
If you don’t well, honey, then you don’t
And if you don’t well, honey then you don’t
If you don’t know, honey
Honey, then you don’t
Don’t they treat you like they should?
Did you take ’em for it?
Every penny that you could?
We once walked out on the beach
And once I almost touched your hand
Oh how I dreamed to finally say such things
Then only to pretend
Don’t you know what I’m thinkin’
Drivin' 405 past midnight
You know I miss you
Don’t you know that I miss you
Ninth and Ash on a Tuesday night
I would write to you from museum mile
A toast to you, your whisper, your smile
Up the stairs at Weatherford
A ghost each place I hide
If you don’t don't know, why would you say so?
Would you mean this please if it happens?
If you don’t know, why would you say so?
Won’t you get your story straight
If you don’t know, honey, would you just say so?
Cause I need this now
More than I ever did
If you don’t well, honey, then you don’t
I left you waiting,
At the least could we be friends?
Should have never started
Ain’t that the way it always ends?
On my life I'll try today
There’s so muchI've felt I should say, but
Even if your heart would listen
I Doubt I could explain
If you don't don't know, why'd you say so?
Would you mean this, please if it happens?
If you don’t know, Why would you say so?
Won’t you get your story straight
If you don’t know, honey, would you just say so?
Cause I need this now more than I ever did
If you don’t well, honey
Then you don’t
So here we are now
A sip of wine a sip of water
Someday maybe, maybe
Someday we’ll be smarter
And I’m sorry that I’m such a mess
I drank all my money could get and
Took everything You let me have and Then I
never loved you back
If you don’t don't know
Why would you say so?
Would you mean the
Please if it happens?
If you don’t know, why would you say so?
Won’t you get your story straight?
If you don’t know, honey, would you just say so?
Cause I need this now. yeah need this, need this
If you don’t well, honey, then you don’t
And if you don’t well, honey then you don’t
If you don’t know, honey
Honey, then you don’t
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
tuesday came and i feigned happy
i wish i could write everything thats been going on.
i wish i could put into words what i have been going through lately.
but really, i don't even know myself.
i am just so thankful that God has blessed me with my friends and my small group.
without them, i don't know where or who i'd be.
they listen.
they tell it like it is.
they make me see things i didn't see.
they make me better.
feel better.
be a better person.
i'm learning to go to God with everything.
prayers and praises.
the good, the bad and the ugly.
its all His.
and i just want to let go of it and give it all to Him.
seems so simple right?
then why is it the hardest thing i've ever tried to do?
and just can't seem to do it?
we’ve no more space
for all your tired and dirty past
and i believe it all to be true
beyond this time, you’ll pull through
you’ll pull through
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
you're a tool
So so what
I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't need you
And guess what
I'm havin' more fun
And now that we're done
I'm gonna show you
Tonight
I'm alright
I'm just fine
And you're a tool, so
So what
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't want you tonight
Saturday, October 4, 2008
i know
Gone for a while and then blink and revile
My old habits get confused
They’ve been placating my mood
And selling me cheap solitude
But I’ve run out of reasons to pay
‘Cause I know you care
And I’ve grown so tired of not being there
And I know you care
So I’m cutting off familiar happenings
Conjuring up my melancholy, no that can’t go on
Certain my sadness was necessary, Oh I’ve been so wrong
And all that distance that I dispatch won’t ever help me feel less alone
Stop all that dark and senseless brooding sing a different song
Don’t get dramatic, this ain’t the movies, turn the camera off
Yeah all that acting seemed fun at first
But I’ve been playing this role for too long
Saturday, September 27, 2008
school and stuff
every couple of months or so, i get the urge to go back to school. and almost every time, it is for something different. psychology, photography, child development, teaching, etc. this time around? counseling.
i think in the spring i would probably take a few child development classes just because i get a raise at my work for every 6 units or so i have under my belt. but i also wanna just get my GE done and out of the way. then i am considering transferring to state and getting my degree in counseling. i love giving advice, and i'd like to think i am pretty good at it. and i love helping people and cheering them up. i love the high school age kids so i would want to either work at a high school or some sort of center that helps high school age kids. i just think so many people can't see the good in everything so i wanna help them find it! or something like that.
i don't know for sure though. those have been my feelings for the last couple of weeks, but we will see how long it lasts. it seems to be changing a lot and i've never really been a school person so i think thats a big reason why i never end up going. i would definitely like to at least finish my GE for sure. i might take some classes in the winter section since i don't get a big break from work anyways so it won't really be much of a vacation no matter what. i need to meet with an advisor first and foremost to see what classes i have and which ones i need to finish. i took some random ones in the past and of the ones i did take, i don't even know how many i passed! like i said before, i've never really been a school person.
i think it was a good idea for me to stop going when i did. and it may have taken 4 years to finally decide to go back, but i finally feel like this is the path God wants me on. i was just wasting my parents money before so i think this time around will be better. especially since i have a purpose for school. i have come to realize that there is no rush. my grandpa dropped out and finally got his degree when he was 50. so who cares at what age you actually graduate.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
i saw the sign and it opened up my eyes
life has been a little out of whack recently.
boys are bad. very, very bad. ok. not really. i think "i have the hardest time resisting you" is the best quote to describe my feelings right now. but i need to resist. resist, resist, resist. i need to move on. find someone else. but its hard when you like someone so much. but how can i like him so much if i've known him like almost 2 months? i don't know. it doesn't make sense really. but the way i feel is a new feeling. and as much as i want it to end, i want it to never go away. i've never felt so conflicted in my life.
my dilemna is my own. i am not trusting in the One person who can get me through this. of course my friends are there and are amazing and are doing a wonderful job helping me through this but i know i'm leaving one big one out. i don't know why i can't seem to just drop everything, every feeling, every thought, every emotion and give it up to God. He's the only one who can take this feelings away and make me new again. so why don't i do that? anyone know? seriously, it sucks.
lindsay said it best last night when she said "if you feel this way about him now, and you barely know each other, and you aren't even dating him, think about how you'll feel if you do date him! and if you don't date him and it is someone else, think about the way you'll feel about that guy because it will be even better than this". i used to say that to people all the time. seriously, that was one of my favorite pieces of advice to give. why couldn't i think of that for myself? whatever. the thought is here now.
so whomever i end up with, i know you are going to be amazing. whomever you may be, i know you'll show yourself to me when you are ready.
now comes the hard part. waiting.
pray for me!
aside from that...i feel like my friends are fading.
well, at least one of my best friends is gone.
i don't even know what happened. and he won't even talk to me to tell me what i did or what happened. it really sucks. and it's also pretty immature. i mean, we're all adults. you can't take a few minutes out of your day to tell me what happened and how we can or can't fix it. its just weird.
i've known him for almost three years. we were really close and always there for each other and then bam! i spend $500 to visit and i don't even go because he ignores me and doesn't make plans to meet me. i'm not about to go to a foreign city where the only people i know won't join me.
so thanks for ruining the end of my summer.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
don’t hold back, don't hesitate, don't disappear
Slide your feet, create the shock
Touch another, watch it pop
Live a little, live a lot
And show me everything you've got
Oh, cause it takes some time
And just a little bit of good
Reality won't hurt for longer than it should
Just talkin' 'bout pain that is there
Face the fact, don't act like you don't care
Cause you gotta stop and show it
Just so I know you know it
Maybe just a little bit
Oh, come on admit it right now
Cause I know that it won't be over til it's gone,
So let it be gone
And show me everything you've got
I know you're scared
But let your walls destruct
You gotta take that step
And your heart just let it pour out
Now I know it's hard to be somethin'
That you don't think you are
But it's hard for me to even try to understand
Why you are beating your own heart
Cause you gotta try,
Just try to be honest and I will be honest
All these things that I say
And now listen clear
Whether brave or you're modest I'm here
Don't hold back, don't hesitate, don't disappear
And show me everything you've got
I know you're scared
But let your walls destruct
You gotta take that step
And your heart just let it pour out
And show me everything you've got
I know you're scared
But it's time for you to start
You gotta take that step
And your heart just let it make sound
So hey, just let it pour out
And don't let your past begin to let you down
Just sing it out
Just let it make sound
And as it will hurt, it will be healed and found
Cause it's normal that
Emotional pasts can spawn emotionalness dads,
Mothers, and nation's flags
So just show your face
No don't be afraid, no don't be afraid to show your face
After all these things I've learned
About things I do and don't deserve
Can easily just shape my life
Shape the way I start to die
No, cause it's up to me if I'll dwell much longer than I should
And I'll hold my tears for years thinkin' it's doing me good
So let's start right now
And just make a vow
You’ll let your heart just sing it out
And show me everything you've got
I know you're scared
But let your walls destruct
You gotta take that step
And your heart just let it pour out
And show me everything you've got
I know you're scared
But it's time for you to start
You gotta take that step
And your heart just let it make sound
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
update
-you always know what to say to make me feel better and always know how to make me laugh. even though there was a time we were not friends, we still came out the other end and are even closer than ever. And sometimes you need to stop worrying so much. I don't understand what i do to make you doubt our friendship. i love you and thank God for your friendship.
-we had our rough patches at the beginning of our friendship, and i don't even think you knew it. but now, none of that matters. we have both grown so much in the last year, and only closer. i love you so much and love hanging out with you, no matter what we do.
-you are the one person i can tell anything to and know i won't be judged and i don't worry about what will happen. i know that we will be best friends forever. We have gone through so much together and i kind of freak out sometimes because we think/say the same thing and we are practically the same person. i don't know what i would do without you in my life. your constant presence and advice gets me through each and every day and i don't know where and who i would be without you. i love you...dot dot dot!
-we were so close. i loved you and couldn't picture my life without you. but we grew apart and that was ok. i now hear that you have totally changed and are someone i really don't think you are. you constantly change yourself for the people around you and you need to get away from that all and find out who you truly are in yourself. and no one else. just be yourself and know that God loves you for who you are.
-you have grown so much in the past year and i am so proud of you and so blessed to be your friend. you are truly a woman of God and i can only hope to one day be that close to Him. I am so happy for you and your man and you deserve it so much and i hope you realize it.
-i seriously can't believe we are friends sometimes. haha. when i really look at who you are and who i am, we are SO DIFFERENT. yet, we went through a lot together and we were understand each other in ways that others don't see. i love that we are friends and continue to be friends even though we are miles away. ps - don't give up on your one true love (ok, i think this one will know who she is).
-i used to think i would love you forever. it used to be LOVE but then it became love as in friends. but i don't even know anymore. i haven't spoken to you in months. you ignore my phone calls, messages, etc and i just don't get it. i think its because of your new girlfriend and thats what makes it hurt the worse.
-i like being your friend. we always have a good time together but you need to realize he's not the one. end it and get on with your life.
-we got really close and then i backed off a little because you were becoming too needy. When you finally realized it, i guess it was too late. I don't understand why we aren't even friends anymore. you are going back and forth between us and i think its stupid. i don't even really care anymore.
-we don't talk much and we don't have a "friendship" but i love you and i wish we did have a friendship. i see it in others and i get jealous. maybe one day. but who knows.
-when i first met you, i just got this feeling that you could be the one. i still get that feeling when i think about you. if only you could feel it too.
-we had our rough patches at the beginning of our friendship, and i don't even think you knew it. but now, none of that matters. we have both grown so much in the last year, and only closer. i love you so much and love hanging out with you, no matter what we do.
-you are the one person i can tell anything to and know i won't be judged and i don't worry about what will happen. i know that we will be best friends forever. We have gone through so much together and i kind of freak out sometimes because we think/say the same thing and we are practically the same person. i don't know what i would do without you in my life. your constant presence and advice gets me through each and every day and i don't know where and who i would be without you. i love you...dot dot dot!
-we were so close. i loved you and couldn't picture my life without you. but we grew apart and that was ok. i now hear that you have totally changed and are someone i really don't think you are. you constantly change yourself for the people around you and you need to get away from that all and find out who you truly are in yourself. and no one else. just be yourself and know that God loves you for who you are.
-you have grown so much in the past year and i am so proud of you and so blessed to be your friend. you are truly a woman of God and i can only hope to one day be that close to Him. I am so happy for you and your man and you deserve it so much and i hope you realize it.
-i seriously can't believe we are friends sometimes. haha. when i really look at who you are and who i am, we are SO DIFFERENT. yet, we went through a lot together and we were understand each other in ways that others don't see. i love that we are friends and continue to be friends even though we are miles away. ps - don't give up on your one true love (ok, i think this one will know who she is).
-i used to think i would love you forever. it used to be LOVE but then it became love as in friends. but i don't even know anymore. i haven't spoken to you in months. you ignore my phone calls, messages, etc and i just don't get it. i think its because of your new girlfriend and thats what makes it hurt the worse.
-i like being your friend. we always have a good time together but you need to realize he's not the one. end it and get on with your life.
-we got really close and then i backed off a little because you were becoming too needy. When you finally realized it, i guess it was too late. I don't understand why we aren't even friends anymore. you are going back and forth between us and i think its stupid. i don't even really care anymore.
-we don't talk much and we don't have a "friendship" but i love you and i wish we did have a friendship. i see it in others and i get jealous. maybe one day. but who knows.
-when i first met you, i just got this feeling that you could be the one. i still get that feeling when i think about you. if only you could feel it too.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
ever since the world began
I know something about love
You've gotta want it bad
If that guy's got into your blood
Go out and get him
If you want him to be
The very part of you
Makes you want to breathe
Here's the thing to do
Tell him that you're not never gonna leave him
Tell him that you're always gonna love him
Tell him, tell him, tell him, tell him right now
I know something about love, you gotta show it and
Make him see the moon up above
Reach out and get him
If you want him
Makes your heart sing out
If you want him to only think of you
Tell him that you're not never gonna leave him
Tell him that you're always gonna love him
Tell him, tell him, tell him, tell him right now
Ever since the world began, it's been that way for man
And women were created to make love their destiny
Then why should true love be so complicated? Oh yeah!
I know something about love
You gotta take his hand
Show him what the world is made of
One kiss will prove it
If you want him to be always by your side
Take his hand tonight, swallow your foolish pride
Tell him that you're not never gonna leave him
Tell him that you're always gonna love him
Tell him, tell him, tell him, tell him right now
You've gotta want it bad
If that guy's got into your blood
Go out and get him
If you want him to be
The very part of you
Makes you want to breathe
Here's the thing to do
Tell him that you're not never gonna leave him
Tell him that you're always gonna love him
Tell him, tell him, tell him, tell him right now
I know something about love, you gotta show it and
Make him see the moon up above
Reach out and get him
If you want him
Makes your heart sing out
If you want him to only think of you
Tell him that you're not never gonna leave him
Tell him that you're always gonna love him
Tell him, tell him, tell him, tell him right now
Ever since the world began, it's been that way for man
And women were created to make love their destiny
Then why should true love be so complicated? Oh yeah!
I know something about love
You gotta take his hand
Show him what the world is made of
One kiss will prove it
If you want him to be always by your side
Take his hand tonight, swallow your foolish pride
Tell him that you're not never gonna leave him
Tell him that you're always gonna love him
Tell him, tell him, tell him, tell him right now
Saturday, August 9, 2008
thank you for the music
I'm nothing special, in fact I'm a bit of a bore
If I tell a joke, you've probably heard it before
But I have a talent, a wonderful thing
cause everyone listens when I start to sing
I'm so grateful and proud
All I want is to sing it out loud
So I say
Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me
Mother says I was a dancer before I could walk
She says I began to sing long before I could talk
And I've often wondered, how did it all start?
Who found out that nothing can capture a heart
Like a melody can?
Well, whoever it was, I'm a fan
So I say
Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me
I've been so lucky, I am the girl with golden hair
I wanna sing it out to everybody
What a joy, what a life, what a chance!
So I say
Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me
If I tell a joke, you've probably heard it before
But I have a talent, a wonderful thing
cause everyone listens when I start to sing
I'm so grateful and proud
All I want is to sing it out loud
So I say
Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me
Mother says I was a dancer before I could walk
She says I began to sing long before I could talk
And I've often wondered, how did it all start?
Who found out that nothing can capture a heart
Like a melody can?
Well, whoever it was, I'm a fan
So I say
Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me
I've been so lucky, I am the girl with golden hair
I wanna sing it out to everybody
What a joy, what a life, what a chance!
So I say
Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
here i go again
Look at me now, will I ever learn?
I don't know how but I suddenly lose control
There's a fire within my soul
Just one look and I can hear a bell ring
One more look and I forget everything
Mamma mia, here I go again
My my, how can I resist ya?
Mamma mia, does it show again?
My my, just how much I've missed ya
Monday, July 21, 2008
emo day
i woke up this morning to get ready for work when my mom told my our dog, cosmo, isn't doing well. my dad took him out to go to the bathroom this morning and he kind of hobbled down the stairs slowly. then when it was time to go back up, he wouldn't do it. then he wasn't even able to walk. it was weird because he was perfectly fine the night before. i called in to work and said i wasn't coming in (last time we had to put a dog to sleep, i didn't get to say goodbye and i wasn't about to let that happen again). so we took him to the vet around 10am. 2 hours later they call and say they are going to give him x-rays around 1:30 and they'd call us as soon as he was done and they had the results, somewhere before 3. 3 rolled around and nothing so my mom and i decided to just go in. he was still in the x-ray room when we got there. because he is such a big dog, they had to give him 2 doses of sedation meds. finally the doctor came out and said he has 2 inflamed vertabrae along his spine and he'll need a shot of cortizone and then we'll have to give him some meds too.
bottom line: he'll be walking in probably a few days but no stairs.
problem: he has to go downstairs to go to the bathroom.
solution: we are going to buy some fake grass or something and put it on our upstairs patio and train him to go on that.
thanks for those who were praying.
it was a long day for us, filled with many, many tears.
including those of joy.
ps - the reason we were so sad was because he is 9 years old and if whatever was wrong with him required surgery, we wouldn't do it. it would be too expensive and as morbid as this is, who knows how much longer he will actually be around so really, there's no point.
so yay! i still have a dog!
and he's a beauty.
bottom line: he'll be walking in probably a few days but no stairs.
problem: he has to go downstairs to go to the bathroom.
solution: we are going to buy some fake grass or something and put it on our upstairs patio and train him to go on that.
thanks for those who were praying.
it was a long day for us, filled with many, many tears.
including those of joy.
ps - the reason we were so sad was because he is 9 years old and if whatever was wrong with him required surgery, we wouldn't do it. it would be too expensive and as morbid as this is, who knows how much longer he will actually be around so really, there's no point.
so yay! i still have a dog!
and he's a beauty.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
countdown
Ten Anonymous Things You Want To Say To Ten Different People:
1. you are one of the few people i know i can tell absolutely anything too and you will never judge me or never get offended. you always know what to say to make me feel better and always know how to make me laugh. even though there was a time we were not friends, we still came out the other end and are even closer than ever. i love you and thank God for your friendship.
2. we had our rough patches at the beginning of our friendship, and i don't even think you knew it. but now, none of that matters. we have both grown so much in the last year, and only closer. i love you so much and love hanging out with you, no matter what we do.
3. you are one of the other people i can tell anything to and know i won't be judged and i don't worry about what will happen. but you need to work on not being a flake.
4. we were so close. i loved you and couldn't picture my life without you. but we grew apart and that was ok. i now hear that you have totally changed and are someone i really don't think you are. you constantly change yourself for the people around you and you need to get away from that all and find out who you truly are in yourself. and no one else.
5. i seriously can't believe we are friends sometimes. haha. when i really look at who you are and who i am, we are SO DIFFERENT. yet, we went through a lot together and we were understand each other in ways that others don't see. i love that we are friends and continue to be friends even though we are miles away. ps - don't give up on your one true love (ok, i think this one will know who she is)
6. i love you. always have, always will.
7. i like being your friend. we always have a good time together but you need to realize he's not the one. end it and get on with your life.
8. we're new at this. slow down a little.
9. we don't talk much and we don't have a "friendship" but i love you and i wish we did have a friendship. i see it in others and i get jealous. maybe one day. but who knows.
10. we hung out for about 20 minutes but i really could see me spending the rest of my life with you. crazy. but its true.
Nine Things About Yourself:
1. I don't judge.
2. I am in love with God.
3. Music is everything to me. i can't explain it.
4. i like to take pictures and some people say i am really good at it. but i don't know if it's ever something i can do as a job.
5. I am a very open-minded person.
6. my family and friends mean everything to me.
7. I can be extremely ridiculous and random. but its something that you have to love about me cuz it's not going away.
8. I trust easily and have never been proved wrong.
9. I love to sing and dance.
Eight Ways To Win My Heart:
1. sing to me, no matter what you sound like.
2. make me smile, laugh.
3. wink at me.
4. surprises!
5. love God.
6. be content with who are and the way you are made.
7. love me for me. don't make me change.
8. hold hands.
Seven Things That Cross Your Mind A lot:
1. him
2. him
3. who will he be?
4. can i be happy?
5. what will i be in 5 years? one year?
6. Some sort of song or lyric.
7. family and friends
Six Things You Wish You Never Did:
1. i
2. regret
3. nothing
4. everything happens
5. for a
6. reason
Five Turn Offs:
1. Cockiness.
2. no sense of humor
3. stupidity
4. close-minded.
5. No manners, not a gentlemen.
Four Turn Ons:
1. love for God
2. Sense of humor.
3. scruff
4. little belly
Three Smiley's That Describe Your Life:
1. :)
2. ;)
3. :/
Two Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1. Travel.
2. have a family
One Confession:
1. i am finally starting to like me for me. no, love me for me. now maybe someone else can.
1. you are one of the few people i know i can tell absolutely anything too and you will never judge me or never get offended. you always know what to say to make me feel better and always know how to make me laugh. even though there was a time we were not friends, we still came out the other end and are even closer than ever. i love you and thank God for your friendship.
2. we had our rough patches at the beginning of our friendship, and i don't even think you knew it. but now, none of that matters. we have both grown so much in the last year, and only closer. i love you so much and love hanging out with you, no matter what we do.
3. you are one of the other people i can tell anything to and know i won't be judged and i don't worry about what will happen. but you need to work on not being a flake.
4. we were so close. i loved you and couldn't picture my life without you. but we grew apart and that was ok. i now hear that you have totally changed and are someone i really don't think you are. you constantly change yourself for the people around you and you need to get away from that all and find out who you truly are in yourself. and no one else.
5. i seriously can't believe we are friends sometimes. haha. when i really look at who you are and who i am, we are SO DIFFERENT. yet, we went through a lot together and we were understand each other in ways that others don't see. i love that we are friends and continue to be friends even though we are miles away. ps - don't give up on your one true love (ok, i think this one will know who she is)
6. i love you. always have, always will.
7. i like being your friend. we always have a good time together but you need to realize he's not the one. end it and get on with your life.
8. we're new at this. slow down a little.
9. we don't talk much and we don't have a "friendship" but i love you and i wish we did have a friendship. i see it in others and i get jealous. maybe one day. but who knows.
10. we hung out for about 20 minutes but i really could see me spending the rest of my life with you. crazy. but its true.
Nine Things About Yourself:
1. I don't judge.
2. I am in love with God.
3. Music is everything to me. i can't explain it.
4. i like to take pictures and some people say i am really good at it. but i don't know if it's ever something i can do as a job.
5. I am a very open-minded person.
6. my family and friends mean everything to me.
7. I can be extremely ridiculous and random. but its something that you have to love about me cuz it's not going away.
8. I trust easily and have never been proved wrong.
9. I love to sing and dance.
Eight Ways To Win My Heart:
1. sing to me, no matter what you sound like.
2. make me smile, laugh.
3. wink at me.
4. surprises!
5. love God.
6. be content with who are and the way you are made.
7. love me for me. don't make me change.
8. hold hands.
Seven Things That Cross Your Mind A lot:
1. him
2. him
3. who will he be?
4. can i be happy?
5. what will i be in 5 years? one year?
6. Some sort of song or lyric.
7. family and friends
Six Things You Wish You Never Did:
1. i
2. regret
3. nothing
4. everything happens
5. for a
6. reason
Five Turn Offs:
1. Cockiness.
2. no sense of humor
3. stupidity
4. close-minded.
5. No manners, not a gentlemen.
Four Turn Ons:
1. love for God
2. Sense of humor.
3. scruff
4. little belly
Three Smiley's That Describe Your Life:
1. :)
2. ;)
3. :/
Two Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1. Travel.
2. have a family
One Confession:
1. i am finally starting to like me for me. no, love me for me. now maybe someone else can.
Friday, July 4, 2008
if you know who sings this, you can't make fun of me because you know too
I’m tugging at my hair
I’m pulling at my clothes
I’m trying to keep my cool, I know it shows
I’m staring at my feet
My checks are turning red
I’m searching for the words inside my head
I’m pulling at my clothes
I’m trying to keep my cool, I know it shows
I’m staring at my feet
My checks are turning red
I’m searching for the words inside my head
I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
If I could say what I wanna say
I’d say I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I wanna see
I wanna see you go down on one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
It doesn’t do me any good
It’s just a waste of time
What use is it to you what’s on my mind?
If it ain’t coming out
We’re not going anywhere
So why can’t I just tell you that I care
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
If I could say what I wanna say
I’d say I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I wanna see
I wanna see you go down on one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
It doesn’t do me any good
It’s just a waste of time
What use is it to you what’s on my mind?
If it ain’t coming out
We’re not going anywhere
So why can’t I just tell you that I care
(Cause) I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
If I could say what I want to say
I’d say I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
What’s wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I’ve got nothing to say
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
If I could say what I want to say
I’d say I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
What’s wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I’ve got nothing to say
Yes, I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
If I could say what I want to say
I’d say I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
These things I'll never say
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
If I could say what I want to say
I’d say I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
These things I'll never say
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
every woman should...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
enough money within her control to move out and rent a place of her own,
even if she never wants to or needs to
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
something perfect to wear if the employer,
or date of her dreams
wants to see her in an hour...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
a youth she's content to leave behind....
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to retelling it in her old age....
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
one friend who always makes her laugh..
and one who lets her cry...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
eight matching plates,
wine glasses with stems,
and a recipe for a meal,
that will make her guests feel honored...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
a feeling of control over her destiny..
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to fall in love without losing herself..
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to quit a job,
break up with a lover,
and confront a friend
without ruining the friendship...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
when to try harder...
and WHEN TO WALK AWAY...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that she can't change the length of her calves,
the width of her hips,
or the nature of her parents..
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that her childhood may not have been perfect...
but it's over...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she would
and wouldn't do for love
or more...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW....
how to live alone...
even if she doesn't like it...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW.. .
whom she can trust,
whom she can't,
and why she shouldn't take it personally...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
where to go...
be it to her best friend's kitchen table..
or a charming Inn in the woods....
when her soul needs soothing...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
What she can and can't accomp lish in a day...
a month...
and a year...
Sunday, June 1, 2008
The Holiday
"I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual."
Friday, May 30, 2008
Love You Much Better
Why do you sing to everybody but me?
Why do I let it go on?
You know that you've got such a music box song in my head all day long.
You fell for a girl with wild eyes,
Dressed in satin and lace.
Oh but she's just an empty diamond mine with moan across her face.
I can love you much better
If you can't see it you're blind
I can love you much better
Oh you know someday I'm gonna make you mine.
You are the daydream in my eyes,
There whenever I wake up
But the colors never crystallize and I never get enough
Why do you kiss everybody but me?
I just sit back and watch
Oh but one day soon, I'm gonna grab you by the collar and kiss you all I want!
I can love you much better
If you can't see it you're blind
I can love you much better
Oh you know someday, I'm gonna make you mine.
Why do I let it go on?
You know that you've got such a music box song in my head all day long.
You fell for a girl with wild eyes,
Dressed in satin and lace.
Oh but she's just an empty diamond mine with moan across her face.
I can love you much better
If you can't see it you're blind
I can love you much better
Oh you know someday I'm gonna make you mine.
You are the daydream in my eyes,
There whenever I wake up
But the colors never crystallize and I never get enough
Why do you kiss everybody but me?
I just sit back and watch
Oh but one day soon, I'm gonna grab you by the collar and kiss you all I want!
I can love you much better
If you can't see it you're blind
I can love you much better
Oh you know someday, I'm gonna make you mine.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
kids these days
i babysat last night for a 6 year old boy and i was so shocked and appalled by some of the things he would say.
1. he just learned how to read and was reading one of those Dick and Jane learn to read books and the first time he had to read the name Dick, he started laughing and said "haha i can't believe that's in here...teeheehee". the fact that he knew what that was at that age and made a comment about it blew me away. i am pretty sure i didn't think about those things that early on. ok, maybe i was sheltered a little bit, but come on?! 6 years old and laughing at the word Dick being in a book?!?
2. we went to mcdonald's (his choice, not mine) and they have these lamps that are shaped, probably closest to a tear drop than anything, and he looked up at them and then looked down at his...well, you know...and said "haha that lamp looks like something i know. jessica, do you know what i am talking about?" (and then he proceeded to point in the direction of what he was talking about). i just said "you need to not talk about that", and he just laughed.
maybe that's normal and always has been the average age of when boys start talking like that, but i just feel like that is way way too young. i hope my kids aren't like that. but i also hope they aren't sheltered, nerdy, church kids. is there a balance? i feel like i was raised perfectly in that sense, but i don't really remember myself in elementary school. i could have been that nerdy church kid that knew nothing about life. but maybe that's a good thing? i don't know. i guess i will worry about it when i actually have kids. i think i think about those things more from working at a preschool and seeing a lot of what i DON'T want my kids to turn out like.
1. he just learned how to read and was reading one of those Dick and Jane learn to read books and the first time he had to read the name Dick, he started laughing and said "haha i can't believe that's in here...teeheehee". the fact that he knew what that was at that age and made a comment about it blew me away. i am pretty sure i didn't think about those things that early on. ok, maybe i was sheltered a little bit, but come on?! 6 years old and laughing at the word Dick being in a book?!?
2. we went to mcdonald's (his choice, not mine) and they have these lamps that are shaped, probably closest to a tear drop than anything, and he looked up at them and then looked down at his...well, you know...and said "haha that lamp looks like something i know. jessica, do you know what i am talking about?" (and then he proceeded to point in the direction of what he was talking about). i just said "you need to not talk about that", and he just laughed.
maybe that's normal and always has been the average age of when boys start talking like that, but i just feel like that is way way too young. i hope my kids aren't like that. but i also hope they aren't sheltered, nerdy, church kids. is there a balance? i feel like i was raised perfectly in that sense, but i don't really remember myself in elementary school. i could have been that nerdy church kid that knew nothing about life. but maybe that's a good thing? i don't know. i guess i will worry about it when i actually have kids. i think i think about those things more from working at a preschool and seeing a lot of what i DON'T want my kids to turn out like.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
life in LA
life in LA was awesome. and sometimes i forget how many people i saw. and most of them i helped out at my work. yeah, it was pretty amazing. i wouldn't take it back for anything. i do miss it but i love my life here now. anyways, here's a photo blog of whom i saw while living in Los Angeles.
JASON BATEMAN
PAUL RUDD
QUENTIN TARANTINO
JASON LEE
ETHAN EMBRY
DONALD FAISON
MINDY KALING
ASHLEE SIMPSON AND PETE WENTZ
PATRICK STUMPH
ASHLEE SIMPSON AND PETE WENTZPATRICK STUMPHKELLY ROWAN
KEN MARINO
Friday, May 9, 2008
"i told you, i need an attitude adjustment"
i've come to realize that if i start my day out thinking it is going to be a bad day, its going to be a bad day.
if i start my day out thinking its going to be a good day, its most likely going to be a good day.
of course there is always the inevitable of bad things happening. but i'm beginning to see about 90% of it is attitude. i need to change my attitude at work sometimes and stop getting so stressed out and frustrated with the kids so easily. thats just not me. i seem to take a forceful tone with the kids more than what is necessary. so kourtni and i decided to help keep each other in check because we both seem to be doing it and its not who we are. and its not fair to the kids too.
i had a really good discussion today with my co-worker jaime. we were just talking about our personalities and how be both can be really shy at times but other times not at all. she said she over-compensates sometimes and it comes off a little cocky, which i've seen with her. but i think its cool that she recognizes it. anyways, it was just really cool to get to chat with my co-worker and really get to know her better.
i'm just trying to give up doing it on my own and let God take the wheel. but that's a whole different story.
if i start my day out thinking its going to be a good day, its most likely going to be a good day.
of course there is always the inevitable of bad things happening. but i'm beginning to see about 90% of it is attitude. i need to change my attitude at work sometimes and stop getting so stressed out and frustrated with the kids so easily. thats just not me. i seem to take a forceful tone with the kids more than what is necessary. so kourtni and i decided to help keep each other in check because we both seem to be doing it and its not who we are. and its not fair to the kids too.
i had a really good discussion today with my co-worker jaime. we were just talking about our personalities and how be both can be really shy at times but other times not at all. she said she over-compensates sometimes and it comes off a little cocky, which i've seen with her. but i think its cool that she recognizes it. anyways, it was just really cool to get to chat with my co-worker and really get to know her better.
i'm just trying to give up doing it on my own and let God take the wheel. but that's a whole different story.
Sunday, May 4, 2008
no subject
"That's why they call them crushes. If they were easy, they'd call them something else" -Sixteen Candles
Saturday, May 3, 2008
i believe
Seen your face in every child that smiles,
but I can't help but rejoice.
And I've heard the song called thunder,
but I knew it was your voice.
Touched the holes in your calloused hands,
stuck my fingers in your side.
oh I was six-feet-deep in doubt but
now I'm sure that you're alive
And it's safe to say we'll never know everything,
still blessings we receive.
And it’s safe to say I really don't know a thing,
still I choose to believe.
Smelt the scent of angel sweet floating in the summer air.
I have breathed in deep the incense,
while the saints send up their prayers.
I have tasted now I see
oh I see that you are good.
And I have ate your perfect body,
and I have drank your blessed blood
And it's safe to say we'll never know everything,
still blessings we receive.
And it’s safe to say I really don't know a thing,
still I choose to believe.
And all the answers that I find,
only take me so far down the line.
The tracks always give out
yeah it's a leap from the lions mouth.
And it's safe to say we'll never know everything,
still blessings we receive.
And it’s safe to say I really don't know a thing,
still I choose to believe.
but I can't help but rejoice.
And I've heard the song called thunder,
but I knew it was your voice.
Touched the holes in your calloused hands,
stuck my fingers in your side.
oh I was six-feet-deep in doubt but
now I'm sure that you're alive
And it's safe to say we'll never know everything,
still blessings we receive.
And it’s safe to say I really don't know a thing,
still I choose to believe.
Smelt the scent of angel sweet floating in the summer air.
I have breathed in deep the incense,
while the saints send up their prayers.
I have tasted now I see
oh I see that you are good.
And I have ate your perfect body,
and I have drank your blessed blood
And it's safe to say we'll never know everything,
still blessings we receive.
And it’s safe to say I really don't know a thing,
still I choose to believe.
And all the answers that I find,
only take me so far down the line.
The tracks always give out
yeah it's a leap from the lions mouth.
And it's safe to say we'll never know everything,
still blessings we receive.
And it’s safe to say I really don't know a thing,
still I choose to believe.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
getting to know me through photos
this was a survey i took on myspace that was so much fun to do. so i thought i would post it here too.
i had to answer each question by going to photobucket.com and typing it into the search bar. then take any picture from the first page of results and post. and not write any explanations. so here's what came out.
1. What color is your hair?
2. Single or taken?
3. favorite band/musician?
4. Favorite movie?
5. Favorite TV show?
6. Live in an apartment or house?
7. What celebrity do you dislike?
8. What musician would you date?
9. What is your favorite scent?
10.What is your least favorite scent?
11. Favorite food?
12. Favorite fruit?
13. Favorite flower?
14. Favorite shoes?
15. Favorite sport?
16. One word to describe your ex.
17. Favorite Alcoholic Beverage.
18. Favorite Sports Team.
19.Where do your parents live?
20. Favorite Quote...
21. What does your last text message say?
22.Favorite time of year.
23:what underwear are you wearing?
24. How did you get one of your scars?
25. Favorite thing to do.
26.your name:
i had to answer each question by going to photobucket.com and typing it into the search bar. then take any picture from the first page of results and post. and not write any explanations. so here's what came out.
1. What color is your hair?
2. Single or taken?
3. favorite band/musician?
4. Favorite movie?
5. Favorite TV show?
6. Live in an apartment or house?
7. What celebrity do you dislike?
8. What musician would you date?
9. What is your favorite scent?
10.What is your least favorite scent?
11. Favorite food?
12. Favorite fruit?
13. Favorite flower?
14. Favorite shoes?
15. Favorite sport?
16. One word to describe your ex.
17. Favorite Alcoholic Beverage.
18. Favorite Sports Team.
19.Where do your parents live?
20. Favorite Quote...
21. What does your last text message say?
22.Favorite time of year.
23:what underwear are you wearing?
24. How did you get one of your scars?
25. Favorite thing to do.
26.your name:
Monday, March 3, 2008
r.i.p. heath ledger
I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close
not even a little bit
not even at all.
I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close
not even a little bit
not even at all.
this isnt just about heath.
Sunday, March 2, 2008
title
someone once asked me why i quote lyrics so much.
my response?
i am not a very good writer (my brother got all those genes). but like anyone else, i have alot of emotions. and i don't always know how to express them. thats where the lyrics come in. sometimes i hear/read some lyrics that just click in my head. it expresses exactly how i am feeling at that moment in time and they wrote it way better than i would ever be able to. i know, sometimes fancy lyrics and rhymes arent necessary but i can get so tongue tied i cant even find the normal words to say. i then get frustrated that people dont understand me. then a lyric comes along and says it for me.
maybe thats a cop-out. but whatever you wanna call it, its me. music is something i can never get enough of. this is one of the reasons i am so passionate about it. it just makes so much sense to me and maybe im a little jealous that i cant write it that way.
i feel really accomplished recently.
before i moved back to san jo, i said i wanted to get a job by the end of february. i ended up starting my new job 4 days after moving back. yeah. 4.
and i designed my new myspace background yesterday. okay, i kind of copied it from a shirt i saw at urban, but i made this one myself. i like it. i wanna make it into a shirt since urban is WAY over priced.
speaking of making shirts, im also feeling really artistic. i know, i have no talent in that area. but i have some ideas up in this noggin of mine and just need someone to help me put them on paper.
im helping start a magazine. it was supposed to be started awhile ago, but daniel hasnt been on top of things recently. but now that im back in san jo, he's really excited to have me help him more than i thought i was going to be "used for". im pretty much going to be his assistant. im really excited for this. i never imagined i would be involved in something this cool. now to help him get started....
i took an online strengths test and really enjoyed it. while taking the test, i was a little skeptical thinking there is no way this test can be legit. but turns out, it really was. and sharing the results with friends and family was cool because they too saw those strengths in me. here are my results.
Developer
You see the potential in others. Very often, in fact, potential is all you see. In your view no individual is fully formed. On the contrary, each individual is a work in progress, alive with possibilities. And you are drawn toward people for this very reason. When you interact with others, your goal is to help them experience success. You look for ways to challenge them. You devise interesting experiences that can stretch them and help them grow. And all the while you are on the lookout for the signs of growth—a new behavior learned or modified, a slight improvement in a skill, a glimpse of excellence or of “flow” where previously there were only halting steps. For you these small increments—invisible to some—are clear signs of potential being realized. These signs of growth in others are your fuel. They bring you strength and satisfaction. Over time many will seek you out for help and encouragement because on some level they know that your helpfulness is both genuine and fulfilling to you.
Adaptability
You live in the moment. You don’t see the future as a fixed destination. Instead, you see it as a place that you create out of the choices that you make right now. And so you discover your future one choice at a time. This doesn’t mean that you don’t have plans. You probably do. But this theme of Adaptability does enable you to respond willingly to the demands of the moment even if they pull you away from your plans. Unlike some, you don’t resent sudden requests or unforeseen detours. You expect them. They are inevitable. Indeed, on some level you actually look forward to them. You are, at heart, a very flexible person who can stay productive when the demands of work are pulling you in many different directions at once.
Empathy
You can sense the emotions of those around you. You can feel what they are feeling as though their feelings are your own. Intuitively, you are able to see the world through their eyes and share their perspective. You do not necessarily agree with each person’s perspective. You do not necessarily feel pity for each person’s predicament—this would be sympathy, not Empathy. You do not necessarily condone the choices each person makes, but you do understand. This instinctive ability to understand is powerful. You hear the unvoiced questions. You anticipate the need. Where others grapple for words, you seem to find the right words and the right tone. You help people find the right phrases to express their feelings—to themselves as well as to others. You help them give voice to their emotional life. For all these reasons other people are drawn to you.
Includer
“Stretch the circle wider.” This is the philosophy around which you orient your life. You want to include people and make them feel part of the group. In direct contrast to those who are drawn only to exclusive groups, you actively avoid those groups that exclude others. You want to expand the group so that as many people as possible can benefit from its support. You hate the sight of someone on the outside looking in. You want to draw them in so that they can feel the warmth of the group. You are an instinctively accepting person. Regardless of race or sex or nationality or personality or faith, you cast few judgments. Judgments can hurt a person’s feelings. Why do that if you don’t have to? Your accepting nature does not necessarily rest on a belief that each of us is different and that one should respect these differences. Rather, it rests on your conviction that fundamentally we are all the same. We are all equally important. Thus, no one should be ignored. Each of us should be included. It is the least we all deserve.
Communication
You like to explain, to describe, to host, to speak in public, and to write. This is your Communication theme at work. Ideas are a dry beginning. Events are static. You feel a need to bring them to life, to energize them, to make them exciting and vivid. And so you turn events into stories and practice telling them. You take the dry idea and enliven it with images and examples and metaphors. You believe that most people have a very short attention span. They are bombarded by information, but very little of it survives. You want your information—whether an idea, an event, a product’s features and benefits, a discovery, or a lesson—to survive. You want to divert their attention toward you and then capture it, lock it in. This is what drives your hunt for the perfect phrase. This is what draws you toward dramatic words and powerful word combinations. This is why people like to listen to you. Your word pictures pique their interest, sharpen their world, and inspire them to act.
taking that test made me realize my potential and i really wanna stop being so lazy and get stuff done. its weird what one silly little test can do! now lets see if i follow through....
my response?
i am not a very good writer (my brother got all those genes). but like anyone else, i have alot of emotions. and i don't always know how to express them. thats where the lyrics come in. sometimes i hear/read some lyrics that just click in my head. it expresses exactly how i am feeling at that moment in time and they wrote it way better than i would ever be able to. i know, sometimes fancy lyrics and rhymes arent necessary but i can get so tongue tied i cant even find the normal words to say. i then get frustrated that people dont understand me. then a lyric comes along and says it for me.
maybe thats a cop-out. but whatever you wanna call it, its me. music is something i can never get enough of. this is one of the reasons i am so passionate about it. it just makes so much sense to me and maybe im a little jealous that i cant write it that way.
i feel really accomplished recently.
before i moved back to san jo, i said i wanted to get a job by the end of february. i ended up starting my new job 4 days after moving back. yeah. 4.
and i designed my new myspace background yesterday. okay, i kind of copied it from a shirt i saw at urban, but i made this one myself. i like it. i wanna make it into a shirt since urban is WAY over priced.
speaking of making shirts, im also feeling really artistic. i know, i have no talent in that area. but i have some ideas up in this noggin of mine and just need someone to help me put them on paper.
im helping start a magazine. it was supposed to be started awhile ago, but daniel hasnt been on top of things recently. but now that im back in san jo, he's really excited to have me help him more than i thought i was going to be "used for". im pretty much going to be his assistant. im really excited for this. i never imagined i would be involved in something this cool. now to help him get started....
i took an online strengths test and really enjoyed it. while taking the test, i was a little skeptical thinking there is no way this test can be legit. but turns out, it really was. and sharing the results with friends and family was cool because they too saw those strengths in me. here are my results.
Developer
You see the potential in others. Very often, in fact, potential is all you see. In your view no individual is fully formed. On the contrary, each individual is a work in progress, alive with possibilities. And you are drawn toward people for this very reason. When you interact with others, your goal is to help them experience success. You look for ways to challenge them. You devise interesting experiences that can stretch them and help them grow. And all the while you are on the lookout for the signs of growth—a new behavior learned or modified, a slight improvement in a skill, a glimpse of excellence or of “flow” where previously there were only halting steps. For you these small increments—invisible to some—are clear signs of potential being realized. These signs of growth in others are your fuel. They bring you strength and satisfaction. Over time many will seek you out for help and encouragement because on some level they know that your helpfulness is both genuine and fulfilling to you.
Adaptability
You live in the moment. You don’t see the future as a fixed destination. Instead, you see it as a place that you create out of the choices that you make right now. And so you discover your future one choice at a time. This doesn’t mean that you don’t have plans. You probably do. But this theme of Adaptability does enable you to respond willingly to the demands of the moment even if they pull you away from your plans. Unlike some, you don’t resent sudden requests or unforeseen detours. You expect them. They are inevitable. Indeed, on some level you actually look forward to them. You are, at heart, a very flexible person who can stay productive when the demands of work are pulling you in many different directions at once.
Empathy
You can sense the emotions of those around you. You can feel what they are feeling as though their feelings are your own. Intuitively, you are able to see the world through their eyes and share their perspective. You do not necessarily agree with each person’s perspective. You do not necessarily feel pity for each person’s predicament—this would be sympathy, not Empathy. You do not necessarily condone the choices each person makes, but you do understand. This instinctive ability to understand is powerful. You hear the unvoiced questions. You anticipate the need. Where others grapple for words, you seem to find the right words and the right tone. You help people find the right phrases to express their feelings—to themselves as well as to others. You help them give voice to their emotional life. For all these reasons other people are drawn to you.
Includer
“Stretch the circle wider.” This is the philosophy around which you orient your life. You want to include people and make them feel part of the group. In direct contrast to those who are drawn only to exclusive groups, you actively avoid those groups that exclude others. You want to expand the group so that as many people as possible can benefit from its support. You hate the sight of someone on the outside looking in. You want to draw them in so that they can feel the warmth of the group. You are an instinctively accepting person. Regardless of race or sex or nationality or personality or faith, you cast few judgments. Judgments can hurt a person’s feelings. Why do that if you don’t have to? Your accepting nature does not necessarily rest on a belief that each of us is different and that one should respect these differences. Rather, it rests on your conviction that fundamentally we are all the same. We are all equally important. Thus, no one should be ignored. Each of us should be included. It is the least we all deserve.
Communication
You like to explain, to describe, to host, to speak in public, and to write. This is your Communication theme at work. Ideas are a dry beginning. Events are static. You feel a need to bring them to life, to energize them, to make them exciting and vivid. And so you turn events into stories and practice telling them. You take the dry idea and enliven it with images and examples and metaphors. You believe that most people have a very short attention span. They are bombarded by information, but very little of it survives. You want your information—whether an idea, an event, a product’s features and benefits, a discovery, or a lesson—to survive. You want to divert their attention toward you and then capture it, lock it in. This is what drives your hunt for the perfect phrase. This is what draws you toward dramatic words and powerful word combinations. This is why people like to listen to you. Your word pictures pique their interest, sharpen their world, and inspire them to act.
taking that test made me realize my potential and i really wanna stop being so lazy and get stuff done. its weird what one silly little test can do! now lets see if i follow through....
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
the way i am
If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.
You need a light, I'd find a match.
Cuz I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.
If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.
Cuz I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.
I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.
Cuz I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
Monday, February 25, 2008
nothing lasts forever
It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both
I tried and tried to let you know
I like you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know
If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you
Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep
Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep
If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe
Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
Tough we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both
I tried and tried to let you know
I like you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know
If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you
Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep
Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep
If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe
Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
Tough we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains
Friday, February 1, 2008
blah, blah, blah
hmmm. where to start.
big news first, i guess.
i'm moving back to san jose.
but no hard feelings.
i'm actually really excited.
i do love LA. and i do love my roommates. and i do love living on my own.
but i cant find a job. and i have no money. i miss my friends and family alot.
i need to save up money. and pay off debts.
so, february 15th, i'm moving home.
i am excited.
you should be too.
im ready to be an adult. a real one.
i thought moving out would make me more responsible and yes, it has.
but i need to learn to manage my money. and then, i'll be more of an adult.
i'm GOING to get a job by the end of February.
i'm pretty stoked for march.
march 7-9 = capitola beach house with my mom, aunts and cousins.
march 10 = GAVIN DEGRAW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
march 11-16 = housesitting (a home with a spa!)
back to gavin degraw.
i have been waiting like 2 years to see this man again.
i saw him 7 times and i cant believe he's finally back.
i've fallen in love all over again.
*sigh*
big news first, i guess.
i'm moving back to san jose.
but no hard feelings.
i'm actually really excited.
i do love LA. and i do love my roommates. and i do love living on my own.
but i cant find a job. and i have no money. i miss my friends and family alot.
i need to save up money. and pay off debts.
so, february 15th, i'm moving home.
i am excited.
you should be too.
im ready to be an adult. a real one.
i thought moving out would make me more responsible and yes, it has.
but i need to learn to manage my money. and then, i'll be more of an adult.
i'm GOING to get a job by the end of February.
i'm pretty stoked for march.
march 7-9 = capitola beach house with my mom, aunts and cousins.
march 10 = GAVIN DEGRAW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
march 11-16 = housesitting (a home with a spa!)
back to gavin degraw.
i have been waiting like 2 years to see this man again.
i saw him 7 times and i cant believe he's finally back.
i've fallen in love all over again.
*sigh*
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
1. Best moments of 2007?
new years. a week in Los Angeles. "work". reno. my small group. norway. popscene. santa cruz. photo class with steph. birthday weekend. oregon. san jose skate. meeting betsy and holly and re-meeting brooke. mandy moore. disney parties. sleepovers at lindsays. hume lake. moving to los angeles. virgin megastore. roommates. celebrities. shows. visiting san jose.
2. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
moved out of my parents house. started paying rent.
3. Did you keep the new years resolution you made last year?
I don’t make resolutions, I just tell myself to do one thing every year. Still hasn’t happened.
4. Did anyone close to you give birth?
nope
5. Did anyone close to you die?
no, thank God.
6. What countries did you visit?
none
7. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
money.
8. What dates from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory?
April 6-9, September 21st
9. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
moving to los angeles
10. What was your biggest failure?
not saving up enough money
11. Did you suffer illness or injury?
nope
12. What was the best thing you bought?
an apartment
13. Whose behavior merited celebration?
my friends are amazing
14. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed??
boys, atleast at the beginning of the year
15. Where did most of your money go??
gas, food, rent, bills
16. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
moving out
17. What songs will always remind you of 2007??
My Blue Heaven – Taking Back Sunday
When Did your heart go missing? - rooney
Hello, I'm in Delaware - Dallas Green
Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy
I Just Do - Dear and the Headlights
1234 - Feist
Breaking Up - Rilo Kiley
Misery Business - Paramore
Gardenia - Mandy Moore
Love Song - Sara Barielles
Taken Aback - The Rocket Summer
Best in Me - Sherwood
18. Compared to this time last year, are you
a) happier or sadder? happier.
b) thinner or fatter? thinner.
c) richer or poorer? poorer.
19. What do you wish you'd done more of?
saved money.
20. What do you wish you'd done less of?
complaining.
21. How did you spend Christmas?
working. dinner and movie with roommates
22. Did you fall in love in 2007?
nope
23. How many one-night stands?
zero
24. What was your favorite TV program??
grey's anatomy, gossip girl, the office, LOST, ugly betty
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
i dont hate people
25. What was the best book you read?
blue like jazz
26. What was your greatest musical discovery? ?
bob dylan, steel train, dallas green, a fine frenzy, the reign of kindo
27. What did you want and get??
new life. a boy =D
28. What did you want and not get??
puppy.
29. What was your favorite film of this year? ?
hairspray, juno, lars and the real girl
30. What did you do on your birthday??
friday - the lashes in sf, saturday - hgb/blg/ths in sf, sunday - the actual in sf, monday (my actual bday) - rooney and everybody else in la
31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
i hate to say it, but $$$$
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
comfortable
33. What kept you sane?
friends
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
christian bale & john krasinski & paul rudd
35. What political issue stirred you the most??
dont really follow politics
36. Who did you miss??
adam, chris, band losers and now i miss my family and friends in san jo
37. Who was the best new person you met??
my roommates, chris, holly, betsy, brooke
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007:
i learned to be responsible.
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"an untold 22 year story"
"oh, it feels good to be free'
40. Any final comments?
i just decided to make life my own.
41. Was 2007 a good year for you?
yes
42. What was your least favorite moment of the year?
bad "breakups", leqving my friends and family
43. Where were you when 2007 began?
at a party in willow glen
ALSO
Favorite Album of 2007: Dear and the Headlights
Least Favorite Album of 2007: did nickelback come out with a cd in 07? cuz im sure it sucked
Favorite Show of 2007: the office
Favorite Movie of 2007: juno
Favorite Color of 2007: awkward yellow
Favorite Holiday of 2007: valentines day was pretty rad
Favorite Drink of 2007: diet coke with lime
Favorite Person of 2007: there's alot
Least Favorite Person of 2007: haha i think my roommates and i all agree on this one
44. Where will you be when 2007 ends?
i was at home
45. Who will you be with when 2007 ends?
myself, my phone, and my bale
46. Do you have a new years resolution for 2008?
meh
47. Did you fall in love in 2007?
nope
48. Did you breakup with anyone in 2007?
basically.
49. Did you make any new friends in 2007?
a buttload
50. Who are your favorite new friends?
didnt i answer this already?
51. What was your favorite month of 2007?
i dont know. this whole year is worth mentioning
52. Did you travel outside of the US in 2007?
nah
53. How many different states did you travel to in 2007?
2
54. Did you miss anybody in the past year?
there is never a moment when i dont miss someone
55. Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2007?
how much is too much
56. Did you do a lot of drugs in 2007?
none to be exact
57. Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
not really
58. How much money did you spend in 2007?
too much
59. What are your plans for 2008?
visit chris, move out of this apt, get a new job, save money, go to new york
60. Any advice or last words?
live for yourself. do things you wanna do. your life is what you make it.
SOME PICTURES FROM 2007
JANUARY
FEBRUARY
MARCH
APRIL
JUNE
JULY
AUGUST
SEPTEMBER
OCTOBER
NOVEMBER
DECEMBER
new years. a week in Los Angeles. "work". reno. my small group. norway. popscene. santa cruz. photo class with steph. birthday weekend. oregon. san jose skate. meeting betsy and holly and re-meeting brooke. mandy moore. disney parties. sleepovers at lindsays. hume lake. moving to los angeles. virgin megastore. roommates. celebrities. shows. visiting san jose.
2. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
moved out of my parents house. started paying rent.
3. Did you keep the new years resolution you made last year?
I don’t make resolutions, I just tell myself to do one thing every year. Still hasn’t happened.
4. Did anyone close to you give birth?
nope
5. Did anyone close to you die?
no, thank God.
6. What countries did you visit?
none
7. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
money.
8. What dates from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory?
April 6-9, September 21st
9. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
moving to los angeles
10. What was your biggest failure?
not saving up enough money
11. Did you suffer illness or injury?
nope
12. What was the best thing you bought?
an apartment
13. Whose behavior merited celebration?
my friends are amazing
14. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed??
boys, atleast at the beginning of the year
15. Where did most of your money go??
gas, food, rent, bills
16. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
moving out
17. What songs will always remind you of 2007??
My Blue Heaven – Taking Back Sunday
When Did your heart go missing? - rooney
Hello, I'm in Delaware - Dallas Green
Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy
I Just Do - Dear and the Headlights
1234 - Feist
Breaking Up - Rilo Kiley
Misery Business - Paramore
Gardenia - Mandy Moore
Love Song - Sara Barielles
Taken Aback - The Rocket Summer
Best in Me - Sherwood
18. Compared to this time last year, are you
a) happier or sadder? happier.
b) thinner or fatter? thinner.
c) richer or poorer? poorer.
19. What do you wish you'd done more of?
saved money.
20. What do you wish you'd done less of?
complaining.
21. How did you spend Christmas?
working. dinner and movie with roommates
22. Did you fall in love in 2007?
nope
23. How many one-night stands?
zero
24. What was your favorite TV program??
grey's anatomy, gossip girl, the office, LOST, ugly betty
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
i dont hate people
25. What was the best book you read?
blue like jazz
26. What was your greatest musical discovery? ?
bob dylan, steel train, dallas green, a fine frenzy, the reign of kindo
27. What did you want and get??
new life. a boy =D
28. What did you want and not get??
puppy.
29. What was your favorite film of this year? ?
hairspray, juno, lars and the real girl
30. What did you do on your birthday??
friday - the lashes in sf, saturday - hgb/blg/ths in sf, sunday - the actual in sf, monday (my actual bday) - rooney and everybody else in la
31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
i hate to say it, but $$$$
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
comfortable
33. What kept you sane?
friends
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
christian bale & john krasinski & paul rudd
35. What political issue stirred you the most??
dont really follow politics
36. Who did you miss??
adam, chris, band losers and now i miss my family and friends in san jo
37. Who was the best new person you met??
my roommates, chris, holly, betsy, brooke
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007:
i learned to be responsible.
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"an untold 22 year story"
"oh, it feels good to be free'
40. Any final comments?
i just decided to make life my own.
41. Was 2007 a good year for you?
yes
42. What was your least favorite moment of the year?
bad "breakups", leqving my friends and family
43. Where were you when 2007 began?
at a party in willow glen
ALSO
Favorite Album of 2007: Dear and the Headlights
Least Favorite Album of 2007: did nickelback come out with a cd in 07? cuz im sure it sucked
Favorite Show of 2007: the office
Favorite Movie of 2007: juno
Favorite Color of 2007: awkward yellow
Favorite Holiday of 2007: valentines day was pretty rad
Favorite Drink of 2007: diet coke with lime
Favorite Person of 2007: there's alot
Least Favorite Person of 2007: haha i think my roommates and i all agree on this one
44. Where will you be when 2007 ends?
i was at home
45. Who will you be with when 2007 ends?
myself, my phone, and my bale
46. Do you have a new years resolution for 2008?
meh
47. Did you fall in love in 2007?
nope
48. Did you breakup with anyone in 2007?
basically.
49. Did you make any new friends in 2007?
a buttload
50. Who are your favorite new friends?
didnt i answer this already?
51. What was your favorite month of 2007?
i dont know. this whole year is worth mentioning
52. Did you travel outside of the US in 2007?
nah
53. How many different states did you travel to in 2007?
2
54. Did you miss anybody in the past year?
there is never a moment when i dont miss someone
55. Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2007?
how much is too much
56. Did you do a lot of drugs in 2007?
none to be exact
57. Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
not really
58. How much money did you spend in 2007?
too much
59. What are your plans for 2008?
visit chris, move out of this apt, get a new job, save money, go to new york
60. Any advice or last words?
live for yourself. do things you wanna do. your life is what you make it.
SOME PICTURES FROM 2007
JANUARY
FEBRUARY
MARCH
APRIL
JUNE
JULY
AUGUST
SEPTEMBER
OCTOBER
NOVEMBER
DECEMBER
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