Thursday, June 21, 2007
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
another song, the same ol feeling
This is the place where I sit,
This is the part where I love you too much.
Is this as hard as it gets?
'Cause I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough
I'm here if you want me
I'm yours, you can hold me
I'm empty and achin'
and tumblin' and breakin'
'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could
I dream a world where you understand
I dream a million sleepless nights
I dream of fire when you're touching my hand
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights
I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends?
Nothing but good friends?
'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I wish you would
This is the place in my heart
This is the place where I'm falling apart
Isn't this just where we met?
And is this the last chance that I'll ever get?
I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only-
Crystal and see-through and not enough to you
Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could
This is the part where I love you too much.
Is this as hard as it gets?
'Cause I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough
I'm here if you want me
I'm yours, you can hold me
I'm empty and achin'
and tumblin' and breakin'
'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could
I dream a world where you understand
I dream a million sleepless nights
I dream of fire when you're touching my hand
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights
I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends?
Nothing but good friends?
'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I wish you would
This is the place in my heart
This is the place where I'm falling apart
Isn't this just where we met?
And is this the last chance that I'll ever get?
I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only-
Crystal and see-through and not enough to you
Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could
Monday, June 4, 2007
so much randomness, it's ridiculous.
-i downloaded about 60 songs from the 80's. so if anyone ever wants to have an 80's dance party, hire me to dj and you won't be dissapointed.
- also, i got some new cds. modest mouse, the fratellis, sherwood, the rocket summer ep, cary brothers, feist, rufus wainwright and maroon 5. none have dissapointed yet.
-max keeps randomly texting me. i love it. it was so crazy, last tuesday, i was thinking i havent talked to him in awhile, and seriously 30 seconds later he text me. CRAZY right? he then proceeded to invite me to go to reno with him. i said i would...but i have no money. he said we could play the slots. =D
-i havent been to a concert/show in almost 2 months and its been pretty depressing. but sherwood is coming soon so thank God for them. plus the format just released headlining dates and heck yes, theyre coming to The Great American Music Hall. shit. thats gonna be amazing.
-i need to find a job for the summer. i am thinking trader joes, plus some babysitting and maybe some catering jobs as a server. we shall see. this week is my last week of work with the Guardino's. friday is going to be sad. but she already told me she could use me a little over the summer to babysit. so hopefully ill see them again before i move.
-this summer, i am hoping to go to Tahoe, Oregon and Hume. those will all be so amazing. plus my future roomie Jericha might come visit here and that'll be awesome. she is so far the best roomie ever and we arent even living together yet! bah!
-whats everyone's infatuation with Africa? adam is there now and my brother might move there to teach? what the heck. although, that would give me an excuse to go and visit there.
-lindsay said she's probably going to NY for new years and invited me to come. so im hoping to do that. if not, i gotta get my ass out to Wisconsin to visit my favorites.
-speaking of Wisconsin, michael z sent me a message and called me babe. and that was about 2 weeks after nathaniel sent me a message calling me a babe. no one talks like that anymore. but i dont even care. i miss those boys. cant believe i'll be lving in the same city as some of them. yeesh. in the words of rufus wainwright, "oh what a world we live in".
-i have been hanging out with greta alot. i love that lady. and shannon too. and lindsay gets home today so i hope i get to see her soon. plus, all these people at church have been making me feel so amazing. especially jesse p. i love that kid. everytime i see him, he yells my name from 200 feet away then gives me multiple hugs and tells me "i like seeing you. you are nice to look at". ok jesse. im a little old for ya. haha. just joshin.
-i think thats all for now. this was long, but an update was needed, for myself. since im the only one who reads this. but i dont mind. im really only doing it so i can remember everything in my life. ok, not everything, but most things.
- also, i got some new cds. modest mouse, the fratellis, sherwood, the rocket summer ep, cary brothers, feist, rufus wainwright and maroon 5. none have dissapointed yet.
-max keeps randomly texting me. i love it. it was so crazy, last tuesday, i was thinking i havent talked to him in awhile, and seriously 30 seconds later he text me. CRAZY right? he then proceeded to invite me to go to reno with him. i said i would...but i have no money. he said we could play the slots. =D
-i havent been to a concert/show in almost 2 months and its been pretty depressing. but sherwood is coming soon so thank God for them. plus the format just released headlining dates and heck yes, theyre coming to The Great American Music Hall. shit. thats gonna be amazing.
-i need to find a job for the summer. i am thinking trader joes, plus some babysitting and maybe some catering jobs as a server. we shall see. this week is my last week of work with the Guardino's. friday is going to be sad. but she already told me she could use me a little over the summer to babysit. so hopefully ill see them again before i move.
-this summer, i am hoping to go to Tahoe, Oregon and Hume. those will all be so amazing. plus my future roomie Jericha might come visit here and that'll be awesome. she is so far the best roomie ever and we arent even living together yet! bah!
-whats everyone's infatuation with Africa? adam is there now and my brother might move there to teach? what the heck. although, that would give me an excuse to go and visit there.
-lindsay said she's probably going to NY for new years and invited me to come. so im hoping to do that. if not, i gotta get my ass out to Wisconsin to visit my favorites.
-speaking of Wisconsin, michael z sent me a message and called me babe. and that was about 2 weeks after nathaniel sent me a message calling me a babe. no one talks like that anymore. but i dont even care. i miss those boys. cant believe i'll be lving in the same city as some of them. yeesh. in the words of rufus wainwright, "oh what a world we live in".
-i have been hanging out with greta alot. i love that lady. and shannon too. and lindsay gets home today so i hope i get to see her soon. plus, all these people at church have been making me feel so amazing. especially jesse p. i love that kid. everytime i see him, he yells my name from 200 feet away then gives me multiple hugs and tells me "i like seeing you. you are nice to look at". ok jesse. im a little old for ya. haha. just joshin.
-i think thats all for now. this was long, but an update was needed, for myself. since im the only one who reads this. but i dont mind. im really only doing it so i can remember everything in my life. ok, not everything, but most things.
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