this is just the beginning

i love the song Boston by Augustana and these are the best lines that are my life right now.

I think I'll start a new life
I think I'll start it over
Where no one knows my name
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town to leave this all behind


i'm so ready to start over. i feel like i am only half of who i should be. i think there's so much more to me you haven't seen (that ones for you jes7). so once i get out of this god-forsaken city, i'll finally become the person i know i am. the person who's buried inside, yearning to come out. she's been waiting awhile now, and she'll only have to wait 2 more months.

i feel like last night was a really good night. not only did i get to hang out with my bff, and see some old friends who i didnt realize i missed, but i also just felt really good. i felt like i looked good, which gave me more confidence which made me a better person. i wasnt that shy girl too scared to talk to any guys. i was calm, cool and collected and i had a lot of fun being ME. i really feel that that was just a preview of what its going to be like in LA. not because its LA, but because its a whole new city. a new place where i can start over and finally be whom i'm supposed to be.