to want (verb) to feel a need or a desire for

my emotions have been on a rollercoaster lately.
but things have settled so hopefully i can calm down.

my parents are in New Orleans again helping with Hurrican Katrina stuff. I miss them. I really look up to them too. I dont tell them that enough. this is the 2nd time they have gone to Loiusianna to help clean up houses. They also went to Thailand to help with Tsunami relief and they are going again in a few months. flippin' do-gooders...but its definately something to look up to. the more i talk to people and get to know them and what their families are like, the more thankful i am for mine. there are so many messed up people in this world and i wouldnt trade a single thing for mine. i dont really complain about them, but when i do, i try and remember how good i have it compared to others.

my brother is in Europe for another week or so. He's in Venice right now and im so jealous. i absolutley loved Venice and i want to go back so bad. I miss him too. we dont talk much and we arent very close, but he is someone else i definately look up to. he's just...i dont know. he just always seems to be "doing the right thing" and is on track with his spiritual life and he's just someone i look up to.

i want it to be warmer.
i want it to be the week of february 20th.
i want it to be summer.
i want to be skinny.
i want to be happy.
i want to move out.
i want to be a rockstar.
i want to feel pretty.
i want to be loved by someone other than my family and friends.

i want.
i want.
i want.

but what do i need?
this is something i need to figure out.
and soon.

ode to...

Call up all your friends and tell them it can't end
You don't know what you'd do if you lost her
And lost me too
That's fine
That's good
That's nice
I understand the price
The cost of craving dark instead of light
I flip a coin to see if you still care tonight
My blood
My hand
My soul
I've thrown them onto you without control
The things I freely give you stole
And now I'm left in pieces
Oh it's all right
I know she needs you more than I do
And I wouldn't win this fight

tortoise

i'm going to get a tortoise. and name it charles.

new years

this new years = pretty much the best new years i have ever had. i hope what they say is true...the way your news years goes, is the way the rest of your year will be. then 2007 is going to be an amazing year. here are a few pictures....








models?


we were always on the dance floor. we were called "the dancing queens".



"youre my best friend! i love you!"

tattoo

i'm gonna hopefully add to my tattoo. i really want to, i'm just not sure if i'll have the money. jesssssssica is getting hers on the 14th for her bday and I am definately going with her, and i want to get mine too. I just don't know if i'll have the money.

but i do know what i want. under my tattoo's i currently have i want to add Bible references that represent the word i already have. Like this...




the first one is the one that will go underneath Hope on my right wrist. and the other 2 i have not decided which one i want to go underneath Love on my left wrist. of course i will only get the references and not the whole verse. and i'll either get them in a pretty cursive or a nice calligraphy.



if i dont get them on the 14th, i'll stil get them. maybe for my bday or something.