to want (verb) to feel a need or a desire for

my emotions have been on a rollercoaster lately.
but things have settled so hopefully i can calm down.

my parents are in New Orleans again helping with Hurrican Katrina stuff. I miss them. I really look up to them too. I dont tell them that enough. this is the 2nd time they have gone to Loiusianna to help clean up houses. They also went to Thailand to help with Tsunami relief and they are going again in a few months. flippin' do-gooders...but its definately something to look up to. the more i talk to people and get to know them and what their families are like, the more thankful i am for mine. there are so many messed up people in this world and i wouldnt trade a single thing for mine. i dont really complain about them, but when i do, i try and remember how good i have it compared to others.

my brother is in Europe for another week or so. He's in Venice right now and im so jealous. i absolutley loved Venice and i want to go back so bad. I miss him too. we dont talk much and we arent very close, but he is someone else i definately look up to. he's just...i dont know. he just always seems to be "doing the right thing" and is on track with his spiritual life and he's just someone i look up to.

i want it to be warmer.
i want it to be the week of february 20th.
i want it to be summer.
i want to be skinny.
i want to be happy.
i want to move out.
i want to be a rockstar.
i want to feel pretty.
i want to be loved by someone other than my family and friends.

i want.
i want.
i want.

but what do i need?
this is something i need to figure out.
and soon.