update

its been a really long time since i've posted but i dont really know what to say! all i have been doing since i've been living here is job hunting. and thats pretty much. of course ive been hanging out with friends and my roommates but thats about all. its been fun, but im getting frustrated with not having any money. ugh. so tomorrow i plan on going out to a ton of restaraunts and trying to get a job as a waitress or hostess. hopefully something will pull through. and in the meantime, i will continue my search for a nanny position and hope something comes along.

i thought it would be alot easier to find a nanny job so i just kept putting off getting something else. im just not used to this. i am usually handed jobs. im not being conceited or anything, ive just been really lucky with finding work and they always seem to just fall in my lap or come along easily. so this is new to me. and i really dont like it. and i really dont like rejection. i have interviewed with a ton of people, and have only recieved 2 "second" interviews and none of them have worked out. i either hear nothing, or they tell me they went with someone who had more experience. but i cant get more experience if no one will hire me!! ugh. its so frustrating.

but i love living in LA. i also hate it. haha. i wish i had more friends but i know i will at some point. i totally get why people hate LA. its ridiculous here. but i still love it too. it doesnt make sense to most people, but it does to me. anywho, i love living so close to lindsay and getting to hang out with her alot. i love being close to disneyland (even though i havent even been there yet). i love...so many things i cant even explain. i dont even know. i just love it!

ive also been thinking about going back to school. i know, weird huh? but ive been thinking of either becoming a teacher or a high school guidance counselor. random right. well, the teacher thing makes sense if you know me. i'd teach 3rd grade. or maybe 2nd. they were just such fun grades and ages and i would really love it. i was watching a show on dvd and one of the characters went to his guidance counselor and it kind of turned on a lightbulb for me. i used to want to be a therapist, but knew i could never do all those years in college (atleast not now). but then i saw this and thought i could prob do that. people tell me im a really good listener and i give great advice so i think i could do it. who knows. maybe when im older i'll be more motivated. we shall see!

i always seem to start these posts not knowing what im going to say and then end up rambling on and on. so yeah. thats all for now.