Wednesday, February 28, 2007

i don't belong here

after a week in LA, i am now more confident then ever about moving down to LA. i have been wanting to move down there for awhile now, but i have always been a little scared. i still am of course, i mean, i am moving away from the life i have known for almost 22 years but after being there for the week, everything just felt right. the people were surprisingly nice, the venues were great, we made some sweet new friends and i just had that good feeling, you know?

i dont know if i am explaining it right, but all i know is LA is where i belong at this point of my life and i cant wait until June when this dream finally comes true.

i just want friends. dont get me wrong, i have some and they are the best people in the world. but i feel like i dont fit in here. the kind of people i want to be friends with dont exist in NorCal or something.
i'm getting out.
i'm moving on.
and i couldnt be happier.

you may not understand this, but i do and that's really all that matters. people say "whats so great about LA?" or "LA's too big" or "LA is dirty and sketchy". well, you may be right. but not to me. like i said, its hard to explain. just know that this is what i want and i couldnt be happier.


june, please come quickly.
-jess

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

oh jessica....you did nothing! everything was just worrying me...money...bills....school...(a big one...may have to drop a class) no fun....anyways...just need to get my ducks in a row...i love you too!!! to the moon and back! times infinity...plus one (for good measure ;) hehehe you're the best....
ps.i read yours too
love you!!!
and this last week was amazing....i love you girls to pieces....you make my heart smile hahaha

Anonymous said...

and i can't wait for you to move down here either...june, i agree with jessica,please hurry...