i'm dreaming of a white Christmas

i didnt realize how long it had been since i lsat blogged. is blogged a word? whatever.

im not even sure what to write about. but alot has happened since i last wrote. im working at virgin and LOVING it. alot alot. like more than any job. "more than nannying aka getting paid to watch tv?" yup. "more than getting paid to work with 12 little 3, 4, and 5 year olds?" yup. those were jobs, but they didnt feel like jobs. this is actually a job that feels like a job and i actually like it. everyone i work with is awesome. the customers are really great (for the most part). and another plus is that atleast one 'celebrity' comes in every single time i work. yes. every single time. sometimes it will be towards the end of a shift and i will recall that no one has come in, and 5 minutes before closing, dane cook, or someone else but yes, he did come in, will come in and help me stay true to my statement. i think dande cook was the biggest one. also kelly from the office, ken marino (no one knows him but he is in one of my favorite movies wet hot american summer), ethan embry and others that no one will know who i am talking about. either way, i love it. i love this job and i dont want to quit. ever.

my roommates and i had a little christmas photoshoot. we've been wanting a tree for awhile then finally realized we're too poor. except michelle. she's making bank. so she decided to buy one. FINE BY ME.


NICOLE AND I


ME AND JORDYN


ROOMIES


NICOLE AND I


and then there's this.



since you can't see my face right now, ill just tell you.
there's a GINORMOUS smile across it.

day off today.
work tomorrow.
day off/cleaning thursday.
work friday morning.
family here friday night!
disneyland saturday!

im excited for the next 2 weeks.

home sweet home?

this week was pretty rad.

i had orientation on sunday night at Virgin Megastore. weird people i trained with. but the trainer was really cool. so i was excited. the schedule wasnt ready yet so i said peace out LA and left monday morning to go back to san jose.

i arrived around 3, showered, and hung out for a bit. then my mom cooked me some her delicious homemade chili. yum. brooke came over around 7 and then betsy came over around 8. we hung out and chatted for a bit and then brooke and i saw Dan In Real Life around 10. it was really good. and the soundtrack is amazing as well.

tuesday i got up around 8 and stacy made me waffles for breakfast. they were perfect. then i went to get my car looked at to see how much it would cost to get the dent fixed...oh yeah, i got in a fender bender last week. oops! anyways, it was too much so i'll have to wait until im rich to get it fixed. after that, i met up with ashley and matty and we went to Sweet Peas then to Best Buy so ash could buy Hairspray, then we went to ash's house to watch Hairspray. I then met up with shannon and we went to Icing on the Cake to get some treats. After that, my mom and i went to Holly and Betsy's and they made us Lasagna. then i went to their small group to saw hi to the Garcia's. after that i met up with Greta and we went out to coffee and got to catch up.

Wednesday morning i went in early to my dads work to help with some filing and Christmas wrapping to make some extra $$$. then i had a dentist appt and then got my haircut after that. feels so good...my hair, that is. then i went over to the guys apartment cuz they made their own thanksgiving dinner and hung out with them and lindsay for a little while. then we headed to ashley's to hang out and dance. after awhile, lindsay, matty and i went to john caine's house to say hi to the boys and that was fun.

thursday was thanksgiving and my parents and i went to my dads brothers house in cupertino. it was weird not having my brother there. i thought it was going to be horrible since its the 2 of us and one other cousin. but my cousin had 2 friends from college so it was good having more young people there. then we got home and watched Premonition. it was good, until the end where the didnt really end it. i dont really know what happened.

friday morning my mom and i went shopping...yes, i know, we went shopping on Black Friday. but it really wasnt that bad. she bought me some jeans and a few other things. ashley came over around 2 and we went to get coffee downtown willow glen. brooke met up with us a little later and we walked around wg taking pictures with brookes new camera. then ash left and brooke and i went to her house to get some music for me. then we drove to los gatos to take pictures by the giant gap ad of john krasinski. yum!! we then headed to downtown san jo, took some more pics and then went to La Victoria and got some nachos...YES! betsy and holly met us there and then we went back to my parents apt.

then it was party time. it was just a lot of hanging out and smore making. much fun. here's the guest list.

brooke
betsy
holly
the allens
stacy
robbie
lindsay
matty
ashley
drew
jeff
shannon
craig
my parents of course
john renfro
tony and some girl
alex woodrow
and a bunch of farm drive kids.

it was really fun getting to hang out with pretty much everyone i wanted to see all week long. i left saturday morning, got home around 2:30 and then went to work at virgin. my first day, it was pretty cool. i was the only female working and there's pretty much only about 3 other girls who work there and one is my roommate. it was 7 hours but it went by pretty quickly and its pretty fun too. everyone is really nice and even the customers were pretty cool too.

i havent written a blog entry like this in a while. one where its more like a "dear diary" scenario. but i felt like it. my roommate and i are sitting in the cyber cafe at our apt building because the internet we've been stealing in our room isnt working today. and the internet we pay for only works on little T's computer so we aint paying that extra $6. so yeah. we're both blogging. good times.


"Pictures only prove what you can't convince"....

i'm doin' everything for you

...And I just smile and say whooooaaaa
Cause you just got to know
That every time you stay
It never goes away
Your reach is to the stars
And shines like the clouds and lights up this whole world

Bless your heart you’ve made me happy again
It’s been so long and I’m sick of pretending
You’ve enlighted the brain in my head
So stay
I’m going to do everything
I’m gonna make it right
I’m gonna make it good
I’m gonna do it alright
I’m gonna write it down
I’m gonna make a sound

Cause I’m doing everything for you
Because I love to be near you
Something just takes me away to place where I’m happy
I’m doing everything for you
Yeah you know that I adore you
And I just can’t take it

kiss me beneath the milky twilight

life couldnt get better.
ok. it could.
my friends and family could be here.
but other than that, its all good.

ive never felt so good about who i am. who know a few kind words could really boost someones confidence. but it has. oh boy has it!
not only that, i finally got a job and they seemed really excited to hire me. they said they really liked me. i had beeen so frustrated (something i rarely am) and was beginning to get really down on myself. i was really doubting my choices and constantly wondering why people werent hiring me and it was definitely doing a number on my self esteem. and ok yeah, only one place hired me (technically 2 but i dont wanna get into that) but one is definitely better than none!

man. im just feeling good.
now all i need is some friends and a great church.
ill keep you updated on those.

update

its been a really long time since i've posted but i dont really know what to say! all i have been doing since i've been living here is job hunting. and thats pretty much. of course ive been hanging out with friends and my roommates but thats about all. its been fun, but im getting frustrated with not having any money. ugh. so tomorrow i plan on going out to a ton of restaraunts and trying to get a job as a waitress or hostess. hopefully something will pull through. and in the meantime, i will continue my search for a nanny position and hope something comes along.

i thought it would be alot easier to find a nanny job so i just kept putting off getting something else. im just not used to this. i am usually handed jobs. im not being conceited or anything, ive just been really lucky with finding work and they always seem to just fall in my lap or come along easily. so this is new to me. and i really dont like it. and i really dont like rejection. i have interviewed with a ton of people, and have only recieved 2 "second" interviews and none of them have worked out. i either hear nothing, or they tell me they went with someone who had more experience. but i cant get more experience if no one will hire me!! ugh. its so frustrating.

but i love living in LA. i also hate it. haha. i wish i had more friends but i know i will at some point. i totally get why people hate LA. its ridiculous here. but i still love it too. it doesnt make sense to most people, but it does to me. anywho, i love living so close to lindsay and getting to hang out with her alot. i love being close to disneyland (even though i havent even been there yet). i love...so many things i cant even explain. i dont even know. i just love it!

ive also been thinking about going back to school. i know, weird huh? but ive been thinking of either becoming a teacher or a high school guidance counselor. random right. well, the teacher thing makes sense if you know me. i'd teach 3rd grade. or maybe 2nd. they were just such fun grades and ages and i would really love it. i was watching a show on dvd and one of the characters went to his guidance counselor and it kind of turned on a lightbulb for me. i used to want to be a therapist, but knew i could never do all those years in college (atleast not now). but then i saw this and thought i could prob do that. people tell me im a really good listener and i give great advice so i think i could do it. who knows. maybe when im older i'll be more motivated. we shall see!

i always seem to start these posts not knowing what im going to say and then end up rambling on and on. so yeah. thats all for now.