the way i am

If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.

Cuz I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.

Cuz I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.

I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.

Cuz I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.

nothing lasts forever

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I like you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Tough we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

blah, blah, blah

hmmm. where to start.

big news first, i guess.
i'm moving back to san jose.
but no hard feelings.
i'm actually really excited.
i do love LA. and i do love my roommates. and i do love living on my own.
but i cant find a job. and i have no money. i miss my friends and family alot.
i need to save up money. and pay off debts.
so, february 15th, i'm moving home.
i am excited.
you should be too.


im ready to be an adult. a real one.
i thought moving out would make me more responsible and yes, it has.
but i need to learn to manage my money. and then, i'll be more of an adult.

i'm GOING to get a job by the end of February.

i'm pretty stoked for march.
march 7-9 = capitola beach house with my mom, aunts and cousins.
march 10 = GAVIN DEGRAW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
march 11-16 = housesitting (a home with a spa!)

back to gavin degraw.
i have been waiting like 2 years to see this man again.
i saw him 7 times and i cant believe he's finally back.
i've fallen in love all over again.
*sigh*